So much has came and left.
So much has grown and fell.
So much has been wasted.
After all that has happened to me, to him, to us. He leaves in a different form of matter. He did not leave for me, he left for them.
I know he did not want to. I know he did not want any of this. But he knew, it was for the best.
After the war between us two, he needed to leave. He left without me.
And now all of this time has been wasted. Wated with drama, while none was ever used for us.
The loss of time leaves me with nothing but memories of his face, of his voice, of his last touch, in the thin air.
I am just wasting my time sitting here waiting for you, Cas.
We could've done so much together. But I was a coward and did nothing. And after you left I am still doing nothing. I refuse to do anything without you. Because I love you.
But little did I know, you can not longer hear me. I know because I can no lomger hear you anymore. I used to hear you're soft angel whispers in my head. It was so beautiful. It was the most lovely sound a person could ever ask for. The harmony of your secrets to my ear pleased me and filled me with joy. Because I knew you were here and there with me.
But do not worry. I am here with you even if you are not physically here with me.
Just know as well that you are more than the world to me, Cas.
Please do not go too far without me. It's too late to say that.
Because I see you have already done so.
