I woke to the bright sun shine that flowed threw my window. I looked over to my nightstand and looked at the time. It was 9:05 am, I laid down back in bed and looked at my phone noticing there that I had messages. I checked the message from an unknown number but I knew by the text who it was actually...Nathaniel. "Good morning beautiful." I smiled and texted him back. Soon as I did I got a text from a stranger that I knew I recognize the number, used to be my best friend Zoella.
She texted me to make sure that I was still coming and to remind me of the cabin that she is throwing it at, I knew where clearly because we use to be there all the time. I texted Riley to make sure that he was still coming. I needed him to be there just so it would not be as bad as going by myself, with no one that I talked to.
I got up out of bed to just stare inside my closet full of clothes and all. But I wasn't even sure what to even wear.
I turned to the sound of my moms voice downstairs calling for me. "Danny sweetie we need to talk." That's just great, ugh...
I walked downstairs with, annoyed but I kind of do not know why. Was it because of Drane or the fact she did not have her ring on or...I don't know but we have to sort this out. I could see her sitting on the couch with small sad smile. "Come sit sweetie" she patted next to her. I sat down well explain. "I will, I just did not know how to tell you. I took off that ring last night because I can't have it on any more, I know it hurts me more than you know for me to do that, Damny I loved your father and he loved you so much, that he would not want us living like this. Still wanting him to walk through that door still in his army suite love, he died a hero and a fighter her gave if his life. He would want you and me to be happy and I know it was just only 2 years ago it still hurts me to know that we will never see him again." There I was breaking down, water flew out of my eyes because yes I will never get to see my dad ever again that hurts me soo much, because I can't let it go.
My eyes all puffy and tears just tears flowing and flowing and as she keeps talking and now she has a tears flowing from her eyes, but as bad as me Oo no I held all this in a lot I held it in cause I just couldn't deal with it. I remembered I went into deep depression because of this. I never felt to dead before I was so close with dad and I never would of thought that he would not be here with me anymore.
I always remember his saying to me every time, "remember this my sweet Danny, I will always love you no matter how far or even if I'm not alive I will always love you. No matter what , never give up and always stay determined you are my daughter we are Relys we never give up with out going out with a fight. You are strong and kind and you and your mother have each other. For that my love remember life is what you make it."
I sniffled, and let out a little sob all puffy eyed remembering those words he said to me before he left that day and would never come back to me.
I knew I had to have peace with this and realize that he will not be ever coming through that door again with his bag and dark black boots that make a noise when he would walk with them. I knew I would not get the hugs he gave me the stories and the knowledge and the moments with my dad and I don't know how I even held this in. I snapped back to reality and hearing my mom talk again. I heard the words and I knew, me and Drane are dating and I was going to tell you about it.
Umm wait so let me get this straight you dating again and you did not tell me about. I mean why keep it a secret when I would know, I would kind of have liked to know about it before. "I know sweetie I mean we have been talking for a while and wow, I don't know how to do this I'm new at this dating thing. I was married and I mean I did not have to worry about this before." I looked at her and smiled with my red puffy eyes, mom do you like him? No like really like him, " yes sweetie I do a lot." Well then you should keep seeing him and all that he seems like a nice guy. We kept on talking for a bit longer and after that we ate breakfast and I finally told her about me going to a party with Riley and I was invited by Zoella. "Wow Danny I have not heard that name in a long time sweetie." I know, it's been a long time I mean she invited me. I said. With that I went up stairs.
I did my routine in the bathroom and I then came back to my room to look at my closet still trying to find something to wear. Still in my robe roaming my closest, I finally grabbed my phones and saw I had messages some from Riley and Zoella....and Nathaniel.
Oo him I decided to wait on the other messages and go to his and see what he said. "I was thinking about you and I know we only just met, believe me I just can't help but think about you." At that I froze and excitement danced in my mind and my body was excited, he was thinking about me. I replied "that's so sweet, I would love to meet up with you sometime and we can get to know more of each other." I wanted it a bit more laid back and chill instead of typing what I really wanted to type. Which would be so much of a little bit to much for right now. We kept texting back and forth and I was just getting more and more melted up in his texting, he knew exactly what to say it was perfect...like he really like me.
Ugh I was getting caught up in just texting him that I just ignored the messages from Riley. I had to still pick out something to wear, so I replied to Riley's messages and got back to finding my outfit. I needed to get back to this party on how will it go, uhh who's all going to even be there? Like I just needed to calm down and just pick out my outfit. I looked inside my closest and decided that this does not need to be hard. I finally found my outfit simple and chill high waisted shorts and a crop laced short with a maroon cardigan and my maroon toms... Wait vans... Whatever....I'll put my toms on. I went to my vanity and looked at myself, I pulled my hair out my towel and I let my hair go natural and I honestly just put on some mascara and lipstick on and put on my jewelry. I'm not a makeup person I slightly do it not a over doer of it. I scanned myself in the mirror and I was satisfied.
I texted Riley with a quick text that I'm ready and he gave me a fast reply "I'm already outside Dans." I smirked he would always do that, do not know how but he always did that every time. I grabbed my purse my phone and I headed out the door. I got inside Riley's deep green jeep. I would just drive my car but he insisted so I decided to do it, besides he have so much to catch up on.
Let's just see how it'll be when Zoella, me and Riley are all in the same room together this will be a interesting party...
