Crazy white girl

Familiar sights

sorry I haven't published in FOREVER but I FORGOT TO UPLOAD THIS PART !!! I swear I didn't forget you guys <3 hope you're all enjoying my story! read on my little readers! !!

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Long quiet conversations on the phone with lawyers, dad had no idea we were doing this.. was this right, should we be doing this.. what if he caught us, he would beat the shit out of us. It was for the best for all of us, even dad. He might miss us but i know if he had killed us he would have never been able to forgive himself.. like..ever.

This sight so familiar, we all share loud roars at eachother, even mom and i yelled at eachother but it was in the heat of the moment and it just came up inside me and BAM!! there it was.. I felt sooo soo bad after i yelled at her, she was already getting to much of that.

As silence fell over everyone the phone blaring from the kitchen counter, I took a steady swift fast six steps to answer. Mom and dad staring me down, dad lifted his head up as a sign for me to say whom it was. Moving the phone microphone away from my mouth "its just a telemarkater" i said causiously. Dad shook his head and rolled his eyes stuffed spicy hot wings that were freezer burt, he was so angery just inhaling them not even chewing.

"Mom im done, can i go to my room now?" i gave her a slight wink as in hinting that that was a lawyer who had finally accepted us, and i needed to call her back asap.. She didn't really catch on, I looked up at dad and he was just as confused as mom was. He knew something was up, I whipped my head around trying to make her eyes look at the phone with my chin point that was pretty ovbious... Even dad got it, he hastily got up and his chair slammed against the wall and knocked a picture frame fall. mom shreaked she thought he was going to hit her again. thankfully he didn't. His head cocked in my direction, I was so scared what was going to happen to me this time? His face was scary, just looking at it makes you feel small, like he was going to kill you..... The way his big brown eyes would be full with rage, his thin always pursed lips, his dark brown hair always messed because he had no time to style it, his tall figure full of muscle, his rather large round long nose, thick yet small eyebrows. Just from looking at him to long makes me feel all weird inside.

After looking at dad for awhile he got annoyed. "What the fuck are you looking at, get your ass up to your fucking room." As he stormed off into the living room mumbling, I was so tempted to ask what he was saying but then again I didn't want to explain all my NEW bruises to my teachers and friends. When dad was no longer insight I looked at mom forcing her tears back and shoving the chicken Wong in her mouth, I knew that she cared so much for both my dad and I." why the fuck are you still down here? huh?" Dad screamed from the living room. Truth was my mind and body were to much in shock to even move, but I replied with something that he would approve of " sorry dad I was just..... cleaning up the dining room.." a long silence, after a few minutes he just had a mumble but didn't get mad. Success I thought! After mom was done I took both our plates to the lighten and washed them, she fixed turntable and the picture. I quietly went up to my room to cry myself to sleep again..

Tomorrow is Monday, what will I say to my teacher happened this weekend? "oh my weekend was really good! my mom got raped I got the wind knocked out of me cause my dad pushed me, than in Sunday my family got in a fight at dinner about a phone call, and I went up to my room and cried myself to sleep. how was your weekend!?" I quietly said looking in the mirror at my hazel eyes all puffy from crying. "you are so stupid and fat and ducking unless" the voice in my head. She always screamed at me, "say something more along the lines like this weekend I went to my moms friends house and babysat." She thought that sounded better than the truth, tbh it was... Looking at myself in the mirror. "FAT UGLY BITCH ANNOYING USELESS NO ONE LIKES YOU WHORE SLUT FAKE FAT FAT FAT AND MOST IMPORTANTLY YOU ARE A FAT CUNT." This voice in my head never shut u she always put me down I couldn't stop her. After she judged me I crawled in my bed and cried myself to sleep as usual.