Nightmare I Love

Chapter 5

"What is it?" I ask him as I look up at him nervously. He still has his black surgical mask on his chin as he strokes his white gloved hand across my cheek, looking down at me calmly.  "It looks like your a late bloomer and your wisdom teeth have been trying to come in over the past couple of weeks. They are putting pressure on your teeth and your gums where they are trying to come in are swollen and irritated." 

Oh no. He's going to tell me he has to pull my wisdom teeth out. I know it.

"So what I'm going to do is take an X-ray in a minute but I'm pretty sure they are impacted baby, because they would have broke through by now. You are really lucky you don't have an infection yet because it looks like your at the beginning of one." He says this sympathetically and I know this is not going to be fun to fix. I want to cry and I think Luke notices. "Its okay baby, we'll fix it. Can I have another look? I want to give you a proper exam now, seen as it's been so long." 

"I thought you already did that? I just want to go home now." I say starting to get upset. A tear slips and I break down. Luke lifting me out of the chair in seconds and placing me on his lap and wrapping his arms around me. "Hey, hey, Ellie, your okay baby. You just did so well, why the tears hmm? You just let me check your teeth and you were so brave, why cant I have another look?" He says as he rocks me back and forth, see- he baby's me, a lot, but I don't mind. He makes me feel so safe and I love that.

"B-because y-you j-just-t look-ked. W-why-y do y-you need-d to-o look-k a-gain?" I'm sobbing and stuttering because I'm scared of what he is going to say I need to have done to get out of this pain. And I'm embarrassed because he said it almost became infected and he probably thinks I'm disgusting for leaving it so long to get to that point. 

"Exactly baby, I just had a little look to see what was causing you pain. But you haven't had a proper exam in four years and I need to make sure there aren't any more issues that need fixing. It's not going to hurt honey, I'm just going to use my explorer and check for any abnormalities and make sure all your teeth are healthy. I will leave the cleaning for another day, okay. I've got you sweetheart, don't be scared" He kisses my head and runs his hand down my face, I didn't even notice that he took his gloves off.

He keeps me on his lap, calming me down for the next ten minutes. "Can I have another look and take some X-rays? Then we can go get some food, go to my place and cuddle all night?" I wanna get out of here so I nod my head and he pick me up to place me back on the already leaned back dental chair. "Lay down whenever your ready beautiful" he says as he sits back down on his stool and grabs my hand, rubbing his thumb back wards and forwards-he knows it how much I love it when he does that so he does it every time I see him. I eventually lay down and he starts to straighten the bib he put around me and run his fingers through my hair. He is letting me get comfortable, but I will never be comfortable in this room-or any dentist office.

"Can I glove back up so we can get out of here as soon as possible? I want cuddles" He says all possessively and I nod wanting the same thing. He goes to the sink to wash his hands again and then he walks back over to me whilst pulling white, latex gloves back over his hands. "Okay honey, so this time, I will use my mirror again and probably the air too. The only thing different will be that I use my explorer, which I will just gently run over your teeth. It is just to tell me if there is anything that needs looking at or fixing and to remove plaque, okay?" I want to ask him if he really needs to do this, but I already know the answer. I have a feeling we wont leave here until he has done what he needs to do and it seems like this is the minimum of it. "Okay" I whimper out as he cups my cheek. "Baby this isn't going to hurt you, but obviously if you do feel any pain tell me so I can fix it." I just nod.

"Okay then, lift your chin up for me sweetie. Just so I'm not leaning right over you." He says as he puts his hand under my chin is raised a little. He brings the light over my mouth and grabs the mirror and pointy explorer but I look away immediately. "Can you open big for me pretty girl?" He ask me as he helps me open with his hand on my chin. I think he knows by now that I will not open as big as he wants me to without his help, I'm still scared but he is helping me with his calming words and touches. "Good girl, just like that." He smiles down at me once my mouth is open to a point he is satisfied with and places the tools in my mouth.