Quicklime (Demoman x Soldier)

Quicklime

The trunk's lining smells like fear and caked blood.

My heart beats fast, far too fast, and I can empathize with that fear-scent because the dozens of people who have lain in this trunk before me must have known exactly how terrifying the dark is. There is a blindfold snared across my face, but even without it, the light deprivation would be absolute. Behind me is something heavy and unmoving—no doubt more bags of quicklime like the ones that keep me from fully extending my legs. The walls fold inward, crushing me down into the smallest manageable shape.

They'd raided my apartment with more mercenaries than I could handle, but only now—when I'm stripped of my ability to fight—do I finally feel the fear I've been keeping at bay.

I fantasize about sawing off the bindings around my wrists, of finding a spare shovel or torture device someone had carelessly left in the trunk, but I know the Administrator's too smart for that.

The road rushes by. The throbbing of the lump on my head is my only company, the pounding of blood and the patter of desert road my only companions as I am taken far away from where anyone will hear my upcoming execution. I am alone. I've chased everyone away and the only one I can thank for that is myself, the decisions I made, the sacrifices I failed to take.

***

It is six months earlier and I wake up at five am sharp. I take a three minute navy shower under ice cold water (the boiler's been out for months and I have neither the know-how nor the will to fix it) and shave in my toothpaste-spattered mirror. I wipe the lather off, check over my reflection, and determine everything to be satisfactory. My reflection salutes me back.

Breakfast is spam, freed from its metal prison with an army knife and dumped onto a griddle layered with grease. I'll wash it some other time. Maybe when I remember to buy soap.

Morning drills. Uniform. Then the half hour walk to the end of my drive.

A rumble heralds the blue pickup truck, ancient but well cared for, wooden slats cadging its exterior so nothing will fall when transporting from one place to the other. It'll hold until we get to Swiftwater.

"Hey there Sol," Engineer greets as I clamber into the back.

I grunt in response.

To his credit, Engineer's smile never loses his glamour, even when sticking out his self imposed task of talking to me. He glances to his right and offers amicably, "hey Smokey, why don't you let Solly sit shotgun today?"

Pyro, half a box of the day's matches littered around the passenger's side, lifts their head and keens. The matches are black and curling, burned all the way down to the end as they'd let it caress their orange tipped fingers, chewing through them the way Spy decimates a box of cigarettes.

"I know you called it," Engineer rebuts, "but wouldn't it be nice to let someone else have a turn?"

More grumbles that I will never be able to parse. Engineer understands though, and he prods, finally making the other mercenary step voluntarily down from the cab and around to the back. I take their place next to the Engineer. It still smells of scorched phosphorus.

"So how was your weekend?" Engineer asks sanguinely, the long drive setting into my tailbone as the truck makes its journey over rougher and rougher roads while the mountains climb in front of us. "Didn't get into any trouble at that convention, did ya?"

Inside my jaw, already clenched, frozen in its perpetual frown, my teeth grind. There are prices paid for a free ride into work every morning, and mine is that nine times out of ten Engineer treats me like a brain-dead geriatric. Like I'm Pyro. Thinks I'm one fig short of the whole tree and every minute detail is something to fuss over, thinks he has to watch over me the same way he babysits that idiot in the back of the truck who keeps lighting matches and then whining when the truck's slipstream blows them out. That doesn't stop them from lighting another one, nor bemoaning when the wind takes that one too.