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"You'll never change..." I said with exhaustion. -Tired of the same-ol misunderstanding, incompatibility, too tired and disappointed to give back a forceful flame now. Drifting off to a place I can only wish was not just a memory I want to have back, I struggle to renew the dream of a happy marriage, 'Held by a true lovers warmth and strength' is what I long for, holding me through the night. The only thing that comes close to that is that morning I thought to regret, if I had only known, it was so right. And now back to reality, I try to drown out my husband's forceful voice, for he, long toothed in age but not in heart and mind, would never understand the meaning behind my words, and will never learn from it either. Another day goes by with only many thoughts, dream and wishes, but none come true, another day I must bare, with heartache. Days, nights, weeks, months, even years has gone by with Dean, the one that fooled me, captured me like an incessant young animal I was. Time waisted, but no matter how much I try to convince myself, not a force can move me to come to leave, for I am trapped my love, trapped in this unbreakable bond, leaving me with just dreams that come as they please, haunting with pleasure-

"You're the one that's impossible!", Dean snaps back at me.

"It's been two years now and you still don't know how to notice and react to my monthly times." -Over and over this we've been-

"That's just an excuse! You look for any excuse to be able to act like a B****!" I assume he thinks I'm always out to 'get him'.

"That's not true, I am not, I'm being serious." looking at the ground, -I can't help but feel this is all for a waist of time now, why do I still fight for this relationship, it seems just dead and over with.-

"Yeah right... sure you are, I tried my hardest today for you, now I'm glad your in pain."

Piercing words that were aimed at my heart, -if he only knew how much that hurt- I'm silent for just a moment...

"It's not the fact that I'm in pain, the whole reason why I was mad is cause you didn't want to watch another movie and gave me S*** about it but yet bring home one, how do you think that made me feel!? You make me confused" - the honest truth is that I just want passion, to be held with love.-

"IT WAS FOR FREE!" is shouted.

"You didn't even come to think of holding me, you don't think I wanted to be held cause I'm in so much pain?" -Its true, a woman can feel so much better with just efforts of affection.-

"Well you should have told me, I can't read your mind!"

"I shouldn't have to tell you, you should want to hold me all the time out of instinct and affection of our love..."

Silence filled the apartment.