𝐇𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐋𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐌𝐞

𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆 - 𝒆𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒏 𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆.

𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒈𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓, 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒌 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒂 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒓?

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"1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5. Stop!"

I really hate joining games like this. Like hello? I'm one of those people who wish February never existed.

I'm not the bitter type but I just really don't care about Valentine's day. Why do people make it so special when it's just one single day?

Kung hindi lang din talaga Pepero 'yong prize, hindi ako magjojoin dito though the game is kinda childish.

At the count of five, every player should stop moving, otherwise you're out. See? Would a mature twenty-five-year-old join such?

Yes, I will. For Pepero's sake. This is my childish side, I guess.

The game went on until only three of us remained. Haven't I told everyone that I'm a bit competitive?

Feel ko na. Ramdam ko na. Ako ang mananalo rito.

That was before the host announced..

"But wait.. Since this is the final round, there will be a twist. Still, no one of the players should move. The catch is, all of the eliminated players will distract you in any way they want."

I'm a little lucky, still. Dalawa na lang kaming natitira. Ang tanging nasa isip ko lang ay ang peace of mind ko once napasakamay ko na ang Peperong pinapangarap ko.

I am a hundred and one percent confident until the host announced again..

"Now that only two young women remained, the twist still applies. However, the ones who will distract you now are those who have a crush on you. If you moved, goodbye Pepero but no worries as you will welcome your Valentine date. That is the essence of this game."

Wait, what? Seriously?

Nasa point ako ng buhay ko ngayon na pinagsisisihan ko ang pagsama-sama ko rito. Why did I even join this game when I have the capacity to buy myself a Pepero?

Napapikit na lang ako. Mangyari na ang mangyari. I maybe against this but there's no turning back. I just have to stay disciplined, not bothered, not distracted.

My heart started to beat faster than usual as if it's the only thing I hear.

Hindi dahil sa kinakabahan ako pero dahil sa sandaling ito nagkaroon ako ng kaunting pag-asa.

Nagkaroon ako ng pag-asa na baka nga ang pagkakataon na mismo ang bumubulong sa aking.. "Okay lang, okay lang sumubok magmahal."

Baka nga okay lang magtiwala.

Nagkasalubong ang ating mga mata habang papalapit kang naglalakad papunta sa akin.

Kalmado lang ako sa kabila ng malalakas at mabibilis na pagkabog sa aking dibdib.

"Anong oras na?" 'Yan ang tanong mo na naging dahilan ng pagkatalo ko.

Wala akong suot na wristwatch pero bakit tiningnan ko? Ganun ba ako kadistracted sa'yo?

Yes, Valentine's is just a single day. But this one day made my everyday special.

Just because I am distracted, pakiramdam ko nakuha mo na ang loob ko. I barely get distracted by anyone kaya nga confident akong mananalo ako diba?

Ganito nga lang ba talaga kabilis tumibok ang puso? Ganito nga ba talaga 'yong sinasabing nahuhulog na sa isang tao?

Ganito lang ba talaga kasimple magmahal na kahit sa paghuhugas ng pinggan, ikaw ay nakangiti?

Things went too fast, really. We became closer. Our feelings get deeper. You became my lover, His.

For a couple of weeks, things fell to their places. Things went as how I wished them to be.

You did all sorts of effort an ideal boyfriend slash husband material would do - simple gestures but for me, they are treasures.

You would make me a cup of coffee.

You would stay up late to wait for me.

You would always bring an umbrella for a rainy day.

You would wake me up for me to not be late whenever I'm too lazy.

We talked from good mornings to good nights.

You seemed so perfect. But there's no such thing as that. It was just an illusion, my illusion.

Dahil kung gaano mo 'ko kabilis pinasaya, mas mabilis mo 'yong binawi. Ang mga ngiti ay napalitan ng pighati.

Ang kasalukuyan natin ay hindi na magiging kinabukasan dahil pinili mong iwanan ito sa nakaraan.

Nagtanong ka lang naman noon kung anong oras na pero bakit ngayon, pati oras mo hinihingi ko na?

Nakalimutan mong meron pang ako. I felt ignored and disregarded. Nawala ka na nang tuluyan.

I won't take risks any longer but I'm not a loser either. Because in love, you always win. You just have to choose what love is worth fighting for - a slow love, a sure and consistent one.

It's okay, I am ready to accept that just like your name, History..

History is really all that you left me.