I have stared into this mirror for so long
that I have convinced myself
that if I look long enough, I will find
that staring back at me is someone else -
a familiar stranger, he is,
someone I knew once upon a time,
someone that I love, that I hate, that I miss
with memories too distant to know why.
As these shards fall to the floor,
they shatter.
Every piece of me I ever thought
would never matter
lies broken,
but still within my reach.I can still see him,
but just when I reach him,
I find myself alone, all alone,
left to bleed, to bleed.
I scream
as I try to piece
back this piece of me,
and I bleed.I have stayed in my head for too long,
locked behind a door in my mind.
These fears are relentless; they haunt me day and night.
Where am I to run when there's nowhere to hide?
Tell me this is just a dream,
that I'll wake up to find that there's only me,
not this
delusional mess
that I've grown so used to seeing
in my reflection.I can still see him,
but just when I reach him,
I find myself alone, all alone,
left to bleed, to bleed.
I scream
as I try to piece
back this piece of me,
and I bleed.Promises to forget him,
this ghost of me,
are all in vain,
and still, I bleed,
for I know I will never
catch him,
but the thought leaves me so empty,
so I reach
for him anyway.I reach,
and I scream,
and I bleed.
I bleed.
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3 AM Confessions
PoetryHere is a collection of poems and songs that I have written. (C)