FROM, DO KYUNGSOO | Chansoo

♡ YIXING ♡

Dear Yixing,

You probably already know this but ... I like you.

I like you a lot, actually.

I don't make friends very easily. Shocking right?

People tend to call me scary or moody. Those same people tend to stay away from me, and call me weird because I squint due to my terrible eyesight. In fact, I used to have this one friend when I was younger who kept telling me I'd be a lot less scary if I just put on my glasses. Then he'd tell the other kids this like it was his job.

But eight year old me didn't really like being told what to do, and to be honest seventeen year old me doesn't like it much, either.

But with you, Yixing, that very first day I started my summer job with you at the veterinarians, you were the first person I met. You greeted me with your heartfelt smile and started speaking to me as if I wasn't the awkward newbie. It felt like I'd known you all my life. You're really easy to get along with, maybe the easiest friend I've ever made.

I like talking to you, Yixing. I like watching you work as you calm down the animals if they're scared, or the way you greet them when they wag their tails and jump into your arms for comfort.

I like you.

And ... it's difficult, because I finish the summer job in two weeks as my final year of high school starts and I probably won't see you ever again. You told me a while ago you're going back to China to work closely with endangered animals, and you told me you don't know if you'll be back or not. And it makes me sad, because I think you've been my most favourite crush of all, Zhang Yixing.

I'll miss you.

I'll miss you a lot, actually.

From,

Do Kyungsoo

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Kyungsoo doesn't speak about the library incident with Chanyeol. He feels it's definitely something he should not have seen, and he's worried Chanyeol may get angry or feel disappointed with him if he blabs that he was in fact there.

Watching them.

Watching Chanyeol.

So, he doesn't say anything. He keeps quiet and as much as his entire existence is trying to tell him something that Kyungsoo can't quite figure out, he keeps it bottled up inside and goes about his daily life as if he hadn't seen Chanyeol make heart eyes at his ex-boyfriend.

Plus, he has an extremely sad Junmyeon to deal with right now.

Kyungsoo had called Hyewon once Junmyeon retreated to his house that evening, all cried out and ready to sleep. She was upset too. She wouldn't stop crying on the phone, solemn sobs that broke Kyungsoo's heart in two. He'd eventually gotten the story from her once she'd calmed down. Ultimately, she had told him, that even though she loved him, they were moving at different speeds. He wanted to move their relationship forward to something even more serious and she was still young, she wasn't ready. She liked how their relationship was, she didn't want what he wanted. It tormented her, and they argued, and she'd had enough.

So, she broke up with him. Right there, on his front lawn that evening. She'd kissed him on the cheek goodbye and then drove off, and hadn't looked back. She hasn't contacted him since.

And it broke Junmyeon.

It pains Kyungsoo to see Junmyeon cry over someone, but Kyungsoo realises the hurt he's feeling is because his friend is in agony, not because he's not the one Junmyeon is crying over. Somewhere over the past few weeks, and he's not entirely sure when, his feelings for Junmyeon changed. The revelation of the letters brought them to the surface but maybe that's what Kyungsoo needed. Maybe so he could reevaluate his feelings and finally understand what was going on.