Some days I wonder, days I ponder, days I look for a reason to understand the absence that had occurred from you,
Some days my mind passes and I expect a notification but I see nothing, only having a faint memory of your lover stating that you will be absent for a while,
For a moment...
But what of that moment? We don't know, specifically me...I don't know.
Albeit only knowing of you from over the phone for a couple of months, as well as having conversations that are both encouraging and also engaging, I still wonder how you are,
The mentality that you had struggled with, and the constant instances where you wondered if your worth was really something to be proud of.
I am concerned is all I am trying to say, because for these various moments, I think of how things could have been had you been more active in your craft, with me being a motivating factor for you in that sense.
Being able to have you send me snippets of your work, being creative and crafting such obscene, such unorthodox, thought-provoking, intuitive pieces at such a very young age, that it amazes me of your potential. A potential that should not be ignored, and something that should not fade away whatsoever.
No one should have gone through the struggle that had occurred within yourself, and though I have had little time to fully go through any conversation we have had, I do know that you want to fully see out your dreams, I know that you want to allow yourself and your lover to be happy, to see her smile as you give her your world, but as she invites you into, and gives you her world as well.
Forming and creating something so special that it may possibly last for generations and generations, all originating from your craft.
I do not want to see it all go to waste, and knowing that I am unable to do anything substantial only adds to the torment and annoyance that I face when I see the emptiness of your eyes, and the blankness of your stare through the camera at times.
The only times where it lights up is when your girl is around, when she gives you time and attention, and when you are heavily involved in the art that you are attempting to create.
Wherever you are Aiden...wherever your soul and spirit are,
I pray that God finds and heals you, and that you shall come back to be the greatest creatives that has ever touched this planet.
Until we meet again...hopefully sooner than later.
