Letters To Keep

DAY 2: She and Them

It's Tuesday and school's been cancelled for the next few days as it's a holiday. I take my time thinking about everything. I check my phone for any messages, none......

I have over 600 friends on facebook yet no one says hi. I have over 10 real friends but no one messages. I try to take action and message one of my closest friends.

Me: Hey (sent 8:10 am)

It's Wednesday and there has been no reply, not even a seen. I feel sad and hurt.

Looking back, I was always distant. I never approached anyone and no one approached me either. That was until I met her, my best friend. But now, are we still friends?

The pandemic broke everything. She transferred to another school and I stayed. We tried our best to maintain the communication, but I guess it wasn't enough.

The trauma of the past me, the person who said she was fine being alone. It was true, I worked and functioned better alone but now...

I've gotten used to the loud laughs, the jokes, and the fun. Now that they're gone, that she's gone, I feel...alone....

It's been days and it's Saturday. They post pictures of them together in a gathering. I can't help but to feel jealous. I keep saying that I'm fine, but am I really?

I don't want to be alone anymore, please...