This pressure on the chest is unbearable, repressing all feelings to stop confusing me is the worst, that she keeps everything, that she has not given me an explanation, having to lie to her just so that she does not feel bad about her absurd decision is painful, because if it were easy she would have accepted it for a long time, but since it is not, I still An discomfort?? I don't think so, since I grew up with her, I learned from her so that didn't happen. Already... how many months? Already six months, it once crossed my mind that I would return a month later, she said she wanted a time of one month, and since it did not happen I thought that after three months I would return like that time and it did not happen either. Then I wrote to her to wish her a nice New Year and said very strange things and I thought she is ready to return, but she turned me more than a calecita, and the truth is that last time we spoke I did not feel bad about her answer, I felt free... but of course I would cry for her again, I depended a lot on her, without her I feel alone, with a lot of anxiety and I can't control my emotions, they are stronger than me, EVERYTHING IS MORE THAN ME, I feel small, defenseless, alone, unhappy.
