The necklace | seungjin

~•Chapter 17•~

SEUNGMIN'S POV

Once I woke up, I looked at the time on my phone

4:27pm

I sighed and put the phone down on my nightstand, I looked around and realized Felix wasn't in bed anymore, so I stood up and went to my closet to choose some clothes to wear.

I changed into a comfortable large white tee shirt with a pair of gray sweatpants, I brushed my hair and used some deodorant so I won't smell like cow shit (😍)

When I got out of my room I saw everyone sitting on the couch, their eyes glued on the tv.

Jisung turned around, noticing my presence behind him. "Oh, Seungmin you're finally awake. Dude you've been sleeping the whole day"

"1. Yes I'm awake, 2. Shut the fuck up yes I know I've been sleeping the whole day you don't have to point it out"

"Woah chill buddy, you're kinda moody today"

I gave him an unimpressed look and headed to the fridge to get myself a bottle of cold water.
While drinking the water I felt a pair of arms around my waist and someone's head resting on my right shoulder.

I recognized the feeling of the touch and I immediately got butterflies, knowing damn well who is back-hugging me

"Hwang, hands off."

"Whyy, I'm comfortable like this"

"Well guess what, I'm not" lies, I was more than comfortable, it felt blessing, but I can't show it to him, otherwise he'll play with my feelings too, like he does with everyone.

"Come on don't lie~ you like it don't you"

"Hwang if you don't shut that pretty mouth of yours-" holy shit what the fuck did I just say
Even if I wasn't looking at Hyunjin, I could feel him smirking against my neck

"Pretty mouth? So you think my mouth is pretty?"

"Ok I regret saying that, now let go of me and go fuck with someone else's nerves because I'm not in the mood"

"Come on baby~"

I started to choke on my saliva. 'Baby'? Is he trying to fucking kill me or some shit, I swear I could feel my ears heating up from the pet name but I tried to keep it cool.

"Don't. Ever. Call me that again."

"What, baby? Why not"

"Listen Hwang, I know what you're trying to do and it's not gonna work. I won't fall for you so go find yourself another toy" Well shit I already did fall for him.

"Toy? What do you mean toy?"

"You know what I mean" I forced his hands off of my waist and turned to him looking him dead in the eyes "don't play dumb, we all know what you're known for."

"Yah Seungmin, has anyone told you you're dumber than a rock?"

"Whatever"

"No, not whatever"

"Felix, Listen-"

"No, you listen, we had this conversation way too many times. Let's go somewhere private and talk"

"But I don't want to talk anymore, we talked enough"

"Well we clearly didn't talk enough since you won't understand a thing"

"Ugh fine let's go to the lake and talk"

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"So, what do you want to talk about?"

"Why are you pushing him away when we both clearly know you're in love with him?"

Seungmin sighed, as he looked at the lake in front of him, "because we both know he just wants to fuck my feelings up"

"Why won't you understand he actually likes you?"

"Because he doesn't"

"How can you be so sure?"

"He's known in our school for breaking almost every single kid's heart. I'm not risking my happiness just to find out some weeks later he was just playing with me"

Now it was Felix's turn to sigh, loudly, while turning his head towards Seungmin who was still looking at the lake in front of him. "But I just don't understand how you don't see the way he looks at you"

"Because he looks at me the exact same way he looks at every girl he wants to fuck with"

"That's not true Seung, and we both know, you just won't accept the fact he is in love with you too."

"Listen I've never been in a relationship before, and I don't want my first relationship to be just a lie, ok?"

"What makes you think it would be a lie?"

"I just told you. He is a player, he doesn't actually want to be in a relationship with me, he just wants to break my heart like he does with everyone"

Felix sighed again, now knowing how to convince the boy that the love between him and Hyunjin is mutual.

"What would make you change your mind about him?"

"Nothing. Honestly nothing. I can't change my mind about him. Even tho I'm in love with him I can't trust him when it comes to feelings."

"This is the reason why you never had a relationship before"

"What?"

"You push love away. I bet you have plenty of crushes who liked you back before the incident, am I right?"

"..yes"

"And if the feelings were mutual, why didn't you date them?"

"Because I was scared I would get my heart broken and I won't believe in love anymore"

"Seungmin.. you have to stop pushing love away. You love him and he loves you. You can see it in his eyes. Also if he didn't love you, do you think our secret would have still been safe? No of course not. But he loves you, and because he cares about you, he kept the secret safe. Why don't you just accept his love? Do you seriously feel uncomfortable around him?"

"No! Of course not, I lied yesterday and today when I told him I feel uncomfortable, it's totally the opposite. Every time when he touches my skin I feel like melting, I get butterflies and all, and I feel beyond comfortable whenever he is around. I just can't accept the fact that he won't play with my feelings."

"You know.. Changbin was a total dickhead when we came in this highschool for the first time. He was a literal midget with anger issues. Of course I hated him at first and I wanted to annoy the shit outta him, but it turned out we both love each other and we now are in an unofficial relationship. I didn't push him away and neither did he, we just accepted each other. You should do that too, Seung"

"..fine I'll give it a try. But how should I even do that?"

"You just let it happen. Whenever he back hugs you, let him do it, don't tell him to leave you alone. Stop telling him you know what he wants to do because he doesn't want to break your heart like you're thinking. He really loves you and you should just accept that. Accept his love. That's all you need to do. Just let him do anything he wants"

"Alright fine. We should head back tho, it's already 6:57 pm"

"Sure"

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A/N: talking about love when I don't even have the courage to approach my crush #slay