LOVE: If its easy, if its fun
Something's missing.
I desperately wanna get things I know I cant get but that doesnt feel that bad.
What feels really bad is that I also desperately wanna GIVE what I know im incapable of giving.
Sometimes i even do stupid silly things hoping maybe this can justify what im feeling.
But nah the void remains.Infact it grows bigger as the days go by.
I also think a lot about the concept of "LOVE" that I wrote in the first chapter. And I ask myself, is it even ok to live by that. Ofc im not saying im Totally true to what I wrote but I really try my best to be so sometimes it just takes a toll.
We see in movies and shows, people loving each other so perfectly. Sometimes one sided, other times mutual. I so desperately wanna be that but I just cant Fucking bring myself to be that. Whyy!!!!!! Ughhh.
Sometimes I NEED to tell myself "so what if 'THAT' happened, you gotta love no matter what!", and even then i still fuck up.
But also all the other times I dont need to tell myself that to bring me to love or feel loved which again makes me believe that yes..
THIS IS LOVE.
Lmao
I'm in LOVE.
