Luka angst
Requested by me
I've been really down in the dumps lately and I need to cope somehow
TWs: abandonment, loneliness, anxiety, overthinking, nighthawks, questioning, thoughts of disappearing.
And yes I do have anxiety it's a mild form but living with it has been difficult
Y/N P.O.V.
I hated the night, every single time 6PM rolled around, I'd get all these hateful thoughts like fearing death and what will come after. Would there be a peaceful afterlife? Would I become a ghost? Would there just be nothing? Would I be reborn as a whole different creature? That brings up even more thoughts, what would I be reborn as?
I began to cry thinking about it, I tried calming myself down with my comfort item, it somewhat worked but, then I thought about even more things.
I began to think about my father, he abandoned me when I was just a baby. Why? Why did he leave? Was he scared? Did he not like the idea of being a parent, or did he just not like me? Did mother feel the same way?
I really wish I could just disappear. Not die, just, disappear into another world with no one else.
I cried even harder
Then I heard a knock at the door of my room.
"Y/N? I heard you crying, can I come in?" It was Luka's voice.
"Y-Yes you can come in." I said back
Luka entered my room with a frown on her face, she hugged me, and I hugged back.
"Y/N, can you please tell me why you're crying?" She said whilst I was still in her grasp
I pulled away from the hug to explain everything
"Well, I've been thinking and those thoughts just hurt me sometimes. And it's only at night" I say staring Into her eyes.
"How long has thing been going on?" She asked concerned.
"For about a month."
Luka picked me up bridal style then sat down at the top of the bed, placed me in her lap and wrapped her arms around me. I rested my head on her chest.
"Listen, I'll always be here for you, you can vent to me anytime you'd like." She said as she began stroking the back of my head
"Thank you, Luka" I said
A/N
Hi guys! Sincerest apologies for the really depressing angst I just need a way to cope rn that's all I have to say bye and all see you next chapter
