"When you have the desert to cross, there's nothing to do except move forward"
I don't know what to do
I want to get better
I'm trying to convince myself
I want to die since so many years,
I'm sad since so many years
I don't even know what is like to be fine,
to be happy
Except there,
there I know everything is fine
Unless... all this is just an illusion
The only thing I'm sure of is that I'm never as happy as there
There I am at peace
There, it's the only place where I'm happy and safe
Only 15 days a year or I'm fine
It's so little
Before I didn't doubt it,
going there was the best thing I've happened to me in my whole life
But now
I wonder if it's true
Okay, that's the only place where I'm fine,
but if because of that I can't be happy anywhere else it may not be a good thing
I don't know I m lost
Lost since a long time
Lost forever
How to become happy
Can we become happy after experiencing extreme happiness ?
honestly I don't think
That's my problem,
how to accept the fact that I will never be happy
I can't be happy because I can't be happy without being there
How to accept such a thing?
How can I accept the fact that I will never be happy?
I don't know and all this terrifies me
I don't know what to do anymore
I just want to die
YOU ARE READING
I m depressed
Non-FictionJust my thoughts as a depressed person In this book I talk about trauma. I consider this book an autobiography for my psychiatrist Or maybe an autobiography of suicide You've been warning
