random scenarios

is this really how it's gonna end?

there she stood. on the top of a bridge that is above water. I stood behind her. thinking "is she really going to do it?" "she wouldn't leave me." "why would she even think about doing this?" she took off her jacket, her shoes, and letting her brunette hair fly free. she just stood still. all i could do was stand in silence looking at the ground and rethinking everything. trying to figure out  where i went wrong. trying to figure out what happened when i wasn't there. i looked up and she was climbing on-top of the railing so close to falling off. i said, "PLEASE DON'T DO IT! I NEED YOU HERE!" she turned around eyes wide. tears filling her eyes. she just stood in silence. a couple seconds went by and she said in a quiet tone, "what are you doing here...?" i froze, not knowing what to say. after a couple seconds i said, "i came to ask what's up. you don't seem like you're ok." she looked at me. a single tear dropped. she said, "i'm fine. please go away now. i want to be alone."i just looked at her confused. i said, "you don't wanna talk about it?" she said, "no." with a stern tone. i started walking to leave. that's when i heard a splash. i turned around as quickly as i could and ran to the railing. i looked over the railing. all that was left was a couple of ripples. i backed up, shocked, confused, angry, frustrated, and overall numb. all the memories start flooding back. i look at her things on the ground. i see a paper. i go over to it. it's a note. i open it. it reads, "i know what i did was going to hurt a lot of people. but, i couldn't handle the constant crushing fear that i would loose everything and end up being like my mom. always fighting with someone, an alcoholic, manipulative, drug addict, always getting into trouble, and not realizing it. i swore up and down i wouldn't become like her. but i did. i was just like her. of course i didn't realize it but everyone else did. i thought if i stopped living it would solve everyone's problems. i would be gone. nobody could have to deal with me. and my sorry goes out to the one person who would always love me for me. would always be my soulmate. y/n y/l/n. they will always be my favorite person. they saw me for me. they didn't care what people said about me. the rumors that were spread around about me. they were the one and only person who knew me for who i was. the person who didn't loose faith in me. even if i lost faith in myself. y/n you don't have to love me anymore after this. it isn't your fault. you're the one person who i want to succeed. i want you to be the bright and pure person you are. with your golden retriever personality. your amazing bright smile. your beautiful laugh. i'm sorry i couldn't really love you anymore. i'm been exhausted. but finally i can calm down and relax. it's over now. i can now rest easy and forget everything. my chapter ends here. on this bridge. i'm sorry." my stomach dropped after i read that note. i loved her so much. she was my best fucking friend. my soulmate. i lost her without even realizing it. i just backed up into the with the note still open and in my hands. there was a car coming. but i didn't care. i just wanted to be in her arms. the car tried stopping. but it couldn't stop i time. then it all went black and the world went silent.