Hurt. ( March 22 )
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"MOM! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? WHAT THE HELL! WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN DRUNK?!"
"Uh uh, what? Uhhhhhh, shut .. up youuu. I don't even wanna have you or even raise you, Adine. Go awaaayy. Shuhhhhhh, you don't even belong heee- , hereee. You, uh you and your fucking dad are sa-".
She collapsed.
She didn't get a chance to finish the sentence and I'm grateful because I don't wanna hear any words that come from her mouth anymore.
I just stand there, watching her. I can't. I can't, even say a single word. God, I wish that this isn't happening.
I just leave her alone there, and went up to my bedroom, a place where I really love and cherish.
Gosh, why this thing happened to me? First with that curly haired. And now, mom! What is even life?!
I lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Minutes by minutes my eyes started to fulled with tears.
Tears keep streaming down my face and I can't stop it. I just let it all out and I don't wanna keep this feelings anymore.
My heart is already hurt and it's broke like a glass. And I think that no one will ever glue it back.
I cry and cry and cry till I fall asleep.
* The next day * ( March 23 )
I wake up and took a shower and I don't even want to remember what's happening that morning even though it's freaking hurt so bad.
After I put my clothes on, I went downstairs and make myself a sandwich and went straight to the car waiting for Uncle Leo without even knowing what's happening to mom.
I just don't care about her anymore. She can do everything she wants and she can says everything she wants.
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I've arrived at school 30 minutes earlier. I just went to the class and put on my earphones and start jamming to my song and just forget about everything.
I don't even realize that others are already in the class. And they've already organize their books and other things on their desk.
* End of school *
"Bye Ren! See you tomorrow "gurl". And oh yeah, don't forget to bring the thing that I asked you to!"
"Yes, Adine. Of course I won't forget about it. Hey, my brain is the type of long term memory okay? Hahaha. " Renna said while pointing to her head.
"Yeah right. Now "shuh shuh" Ren! Your parents is waiting for ya."
"Bye Adine!"
"Bye again!"
At that time, I knew that I can't tell anyone even Renna, my closest friend. I just don't know how to tell her and I don't even want to find a way to tell her.
I don't even want to be a burden to Renna or anyone else.
Let me be alone in this thing and let me be the one who face it, without no one by my side.
Deep in my heart, I just don't want to trouble anyone thou, their brain is already explodes because of their own problems. I don't want to add my problems to their head.
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Uncle Leo picks me up a little bit late and I don't even care because I don't wanna face my mom. It's disgusts me already.
When I've arrived home, I see mom in the living room. So I just went straight to room without even ask how her day or anything.
I heard knocks on the door.
*knock, knock, knock*
"Come in!"
When the door's open, I see that face. The face that annoys and disgusts me and makes me wanna puke.
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