From God through Hell and Back

Look Its My life Story.

I am a born again Christian who got baptized in the holy spirit in winter 2010 and physically in the pacific ocean that following summer. Coast Christian Fellowship God and Surfing. Saved my Soul. 😇

Satan himself lived in my mind. Not just coming for me. He was always there. Since I was 2 years old. When I moved to Taylorville, Illinois in 10th grade. Therefore I Lost Surfing, I haven't seen the Ocean since. I lost my faith in 11th grade and turned to Wearing Black, hardcore alcoholism and ultimately hardcore drugs. Not Goth or Emo. More like Johnny Cash's masterpiece "Gods Gonna Cut You Down." 🖤

When I graduated in 2014 I moved to Humboldt County to properly meet my Dad and go to college. In college I found pure spirituality and I did all the reading Christianity didnt offer me in middle school bible study. I read the Grand Grimoire, the Torah, the Koran, the TAO, and the Book of Shadows🧐

In November 2016 I went to Deary, idaho to properly meet my Mom. I found out where Satan's Binding had come from. My step dad Was trying to put a Death Spell on my mother and a influence Spell to bring me to his darkness.😯

New years 2018-2019 My step dad got a return to sender. HA! I'm not stupid a*****e. His mom died and then he died a brain dead paraplegic who missed "numbnuts' or coming from a decent individual me Rusty. Karma 3 fold!😂

In April 2019 Satan possessed my mother and she tried to slit my throat. I survived on the streets for 2 weeks until I moved into my buddy Brydens trailer in Kooskia, idaho. There was two trailers on the property. His and His friend Zacks whose dad Ken owned the place. Zack and their High School DudeCrew enslaved me while I was crying out for hope and recovery. 😫

That same summer I met a Good Friend who found me an apartment. His brother hired me as an apprentice. I worked Long Hard hours that whole summer. I met my person in September 22nd that year. I continued working Long Hard Hours and being loyal to her. I gave her her first Decent valentines day in 2021 she didn't leave until August 22 2021. They moved in with their husband in Salem Oregon and told me "Shut Up and Giver Space." Ive cried ever since and sometimes I'd reach out and they'd jump my s**t for not f******g listening. 😭

What do you think I'm going through right now huh? Lmfao lemme tell ya.😤

When we met She preached hopelessness. I preached creating your own hope. She preached that there is no love. I preached that she IS love. It really made me mad how lost she was. Cause I always saw her as the north star. I just read the map WAY WRONG🤔

Deep down I always knew what I was and what she was. This song is about why she even bothered. She was way too anti confidence and I was way too overconfident. I put her on the pedastool and consented to my own medicine. I didnt intend to ever give her a dose. She barely even gave me a dose at all. But when she did. That's what it was all for in the end. 😉

Time to finally let her go. I'll be here if she ever remembers. She was a true friend and Our Temporary Love mattered to our Seperate Permananence. She didnt feel worthy of her crushes (now husbands) love. I told her F**K THAT you're more than worthy. 😎

Shes finally with him and probably even in his arms as you read this. So I'm glad we're done. It was hard as hell. It f*****g burned. It was what I did to everyone else. She deserves this.✌

Sounds like we've done the impossible for eachother to me!  Satan cant hang, i really really showed him the door forever just this morning. March 5th 2022👌

I'm proud of that Woman, Father! I remember she wanted those sharky whine glasses that the advertisement for went viral. So I got those, a hoody that said Level of Savage? CAPRICORN!, Matching Silver Turtle Dove Pendants and a Gold Chain with a Gold Capricorn Symbol (what does Gold and Silver jewelry do to Unclean Entities!) For valentines day, 2021. Cuz we were Crying Doves who had the pleasure of meeting. She saved me, No really she did. She said turtle doves are true friends for eternity. No matter what happens in love. 💯