Lost in a Art book

Maybe it's time to give up....?

It's been a day since I got to Delila's she has stopped cutting now.
Its great here, but I still remember what I left behind.
I know what Taylor did but I cannot believe he would put me through this!
As I was raking threw my bag I saw the disc that read: Dear Sia <3
I put it it to my DVD player and it started to play,

'Hi, Sia.....I Just wanted to say I love you, I always have and always will, also I have made a slideshow coming up of us, see you when i'm back from grocery shopping.
There was a slideshow full of pictures of me and taylor and quotes, it was adorable but all I could do is think he cheated basically he made a fool of me. So then I start to curl up in a ball in my room I rock back and forward until I get a bunch of messages from Taylor...
'Where are you?!?' 'Babe' 'Tell me our okay? Okay?'
I text him back:
'I now know your dating someone else, Abbie Orlando! I guess we won't be seeing each other again as I can't be in a relationship with someone who is already in one! - S'
He then replied with a very hurtful message:

'Sia, I'm sorry I'm such a idiot, I really loved you but don't forgive me, because what I did is wrong so now i'm going say bye forever.....*Knife emoji*
I knew exactly what he was talking about, he was going to commit sucide!! I told Delila we had to go now and i didn't explain myself because we had to go

I Arrive at the house the door was thankfully open and I ran to Taylor and grabbed him as he was trying to drown himself in the water I took him out of the water he just lay there he wasn't breathing I was scared I shout on Delila and her mother, Delila's mother is a vet so that was good......I guess.
'He's been underwater to long, he's left us...' She said 
I started to cry,  I started to sob.

Its been 4 hours since Taylor died, I watched the slideshow over and over, I miss him and Him and Abbie broke up 2 weeks ago.....I feel horrible.

I just want to die