Secret to Love

Prologue

It's all a lie. Everything is a lie. No matter what you choose to accept as an answer. No matter the truth you believe falls so gracefully from their lips, it's all a lie. Every last thing that a person has ever said to you, it's a lie. The sincerity it may hold to you, the underlying wave of belief that spreads so helplessly as you undergo more of the words you so wish to rely on. It's all a lie.  It does matter who they are, whether they are important to you or just a stranger walking the ground alongside you, it's all a lie.
I fell under the spell of ridicule, pain and suffering due to my foolish attempt at holding onto the one thing keeping me afloat. Except it wasn't. I refused to believe the real truth, that the one thing I believed would never hurt me, would be the waves crashing over me, drowning me until I gave up.
The one thing I chose to believe, the person I let into my head and with it my heart was the one to cast out my affection and ruin the wall I had built. The wall I had been so naive to knock down had to be forged once more as I scrambled helplessly to fix the bricks back together before they could be damaged again.
We were two sides of the same coin, but had somehow melted the metal and blurred the lines of our division so that we could be together as one face rather than two.
He became my saviour, my hero and my heart but, he was also my oppressor, my villain and my ruin. He swept me away and showed me things I'd never seen within the narrow existence of the world. He had brought a light within myself and shown me the life I never knew existed. He drew out the good but with it the bad and when I tried to put together the lasting pieces, he took them away too. He left me with nothing. Nothing but a secret.
A secret to why I had been broken, never to be fixed.
A secret to why the world had crumbled below my feet as he walked away.
A secret to love.