L.O.O.P

Wake Up!

Omar.

......"Ahhh!"...I woke up sweating and my eyes dilating. I had a nightmare, I checked the time; i groaned it was to early for this. I got ready for school and I woke up Adam, we got dressed and drove off to school. I dreaded school but the only thing I loved about it was my best friends.

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We layed on the grass all day talking about our problems, William caught my eye but just for a glimpse I was just trying to keep my excitement to myself. My face was burning up because of my best friend, I wantd him to like me but that's not how the world works. If only he noticed that I like him, he has a girlfriend but it's a long distance relationship so I don't know how that works. "Hey!" I hear I'm startled by it I look up and see William, "Hi" I say back he proceeds to sit beside me and we start talking about our life problems.

We got up and went to his car, it was a awkward ride to my house but he helped by talking about his girlfriend that made me envious of her, I suddenly felt like I was getting hard but I kept ignoring it. 

We arrived and I got off the car "See you tomorrow!" He told me, "ok" I replied back, I went inside and closed the door and I saw through him drive off through the window, I hesitated but I yelled out for Adam and he came downstairs and I told him about my feelings for William. He congratulated me and I was relieved that he didn't think it was weird to like him. I went up to my room and I drifted off to sleep...

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I woke up yet again from another nightmare but I made myself better by thinking about William. I get up and get in my car, I drove off to anywhere that helped me calm down. I blasted Overdrive by Conan Gray, yes shoot me I'm a fan I blame Jesus for that. But it didn't end for long I woke up again? I woke up sweating and aroused. It was 12:00am thankfully it was the weekend, I got dressed and texted William if he wanted to hangout and he replied quickly I was surprised but I was excited to hangout with him. I drove to his house and saw him outside he looked good, he got in and we went to a restaurant and we were surprised to see Jesus there, he was with someone else whom I don't recall knowing, he gave of an ominous vibe, but this wasn't a first, Jesus tends to find shitty men that don't compare anything to him, he's my best friend and I want him to be happy but the men he goes out with are horrible. I was eyeing the guy but didn't want to seem obvious so I just ignored I proceed to say hi to Jesus and he smiles and sees me with William and just makes a devilish smile at me, knowing that I like him. I had thoughts of William when he did that I walk to a table with William and we sit down and we start conversating about things in our life he says his relationship is going good but he sounded unsure and unsteady about it, I started to wonder if they were having problems, but I set it aside and ignored it.

We finished eating and we went to my car and we had a moment of awkward silence but he made it better by asking me if I wanted to go to the movie theater and I agreed so we went and drove off.