Anxiety isn't crying all the time alone in your room. Its being alone silently wishing you had more tears to cry. Wondering why me? Why am I so broken? Why does no one see I'm suffering? its drowning in myself. Its getting lost in all my cracks and flaws as i look in the mirror. It's the overwhelming fear when there isn't a thing to fear. Its being nervous and feeling ur heart speed up as you enter a room. It's feeling pressure in your chest as you walk out the door. It's the fear you get on Sunday nights knowing when u wake up they'll be school. It's knowing no matter how many times you try to explain it, no one really gets it. It's feeling so alone you shut yourself off from everyone. It's wanted to scream but not being able to even whisper a word. It's being up all night being afraid of tomorrow and all te unknown. Its being so broken you become numb. It's making urself physically sick. It's panic attack in public that u can't control. It's not being hungry. It's being exhausted all the time. It's shaking but not being cold. It's all of the above and so much more. its part of me. Its consuming me.
