Being Mrs.Kim

part 17

As you hear him, you don't know, you feel a kind of anger and contempt towards him. You are just looking down....he come towards you and hold your right hand with his left hand and your left hand with his right hand. You slowly make your gaze up. He is looking into your hands. Again.....his eyes are bloodshot. WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM.....
Tae: y/n......do you really want to go.....?
His is speaking in a gloomy voice. A cold in his hands are increasing.
You: yes.... everyone will be there.....it will be fun..
Tae seem so dull when I say that....his facial expression changes....you feel a fear....
Tae: y/n......Y/N......
First he call you in a calm way but the second time his tone changed.....you don't understand whether he is being angry or is he being emotional.
You: yes...................
Tae: why.....why do you want to go?
You: its been a while since we all met, so it's going to be fun....
Tae: Y/N..... (finally you understand he is being angry)....don't go...
You: why?
You feel like he is doubting you, even it's a lie. He take his eyes from your hand and look at you. Eyebrows pulled down together,
Wide open, glaring eyes, upper eyelids raised in a stare, lips tightly closed with the red margins of the lips becoming more narrow, and lips becoming thinner.
Tae: I SAID DONT GO..... THAT'S IT......
He throw your hands backwards....and shout at you.....you feel so sad.....your heart flinch....feeling pain...this is the first time him yelling at you.
WHY IS HE BEING ANGRY ALL OF A SUDDEN
Tears fill yours eyes....you take a step back, You feel so downhearted, disconsolate.... frustrated...you can't feel yourself....You keep looking at him....he is standing and slowly rubbing his temple because of disappointment and regression. He look again at you....but in a complete different look. 

Tae's POV

I feel a sense of loss or sorrow at what i have done, I wish I could undo the previous choice that I made....I feel pain emotionally...I feel so bad to yell at her all of a sudden....she might have been startled....she might have felt fear.....I should not have done that...she is tearing up....WHY TAEHYUNG....SHE HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG....WHY ARE YOU BEING ANGRY AT HER... SHE IS INNOCENT... MY POOR BABY MIGHT HAVE BEEN SO SCARED.... But everything happened because she lied to me and that really hurts.
I really want to comfort her... I walk to her inch by inch....she is not looking up....her eyes are all red and watery. Her hands are shivering...she is biting her lips continuesly. She is trying to control her tears.
I catch her right arm, but....she hop a step back to avoid my touch.....it's all because of my sudden reaction...she never expected me to do this...and I have never been angry at her.
Me: y/n....I'm sorry...I should not have reacted like this...
She is not even moving.... The regression is increasing as I keep looking at her. If we keep on this silence...she may think many things in her head and that will cause emotional problems. But suddenly the song Euphoria plays....yeah, ofcourse it's her ringtone. This was not the right time for her phone to ring. It's like God is purposely provoking me. I can't see who is calling her because the phone is on the bed. She is not either hanging the call nor picking up the call. She is standing there like she didn't even heard the phone ringing. She is really shocked. I'm slightly getting angry...but if I again become angry, she will be really disappointed. So I am going to calm her...better I tell her all thing. So she will also open up her mind to me. No need of misunderstanding between us.
I decided to bring up the matter that was irritating me all the day.

End of Tae's POV

He is trying to comfort me but I'm startled. Many things run on my mind....but I cant conclude on a reason of him being angry all of a sudden. MAYBE HE IS ANGRY WITH SOMETHING AND HE MIGHT BE SHOWING IT TO ME....BUT HE NEVER DOES THAT....I HAVE SEEN HIM BEING ANGRY BEFORE....BUT NOT TO ME.....THIS IS HURTING.
Then I clearly hear my phone ringing. I couldn't move a bit to pick it...even I was scared to know who it is, what if it's Jungkook. The phone stop by itself. Still can't figure out why Tae became angry. I ONLY ASKED HIM TO GO FOR THE REUNION...EVEN ITS A LIE...WHY SHOULD HE BE ANGRY.
The quietness is blowing up my mind with many thoughts. Finally he speak up, straight to the reason for why he became angry.
Tae: y/n.....why did you lie to me?
You: I didn't.....
Your tongue work by its own.....HOW DID HE KNEW I LIED....AND WHY DID I LIE AGAIN....  You feel so fear to lie again... You obviously regret what you just said now.
He give you a  "why" facial expression. His face is so sad and disappointing.
You: no....I lied.... because....Tae...
You get cut of as he step front and look you with his mournful eyes which is heart melting. He round your waist and pull you closer to him...his hands now crossed on your hip. He lick his lips....you don't know what is going to happen. His face is still sad.
Tae: y/n....you really want to meet Jungkook?