REST IN PEACE

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    At first meet i saw his smile and those eyes full with lighting. I can feel how much butterflies fly in my stomach and my heart are breath so deeply. I'm getting ready for in love. It's just been 3years ago but I'm still feeling he is staying with me and look at me with those smile. I cried at night and i know he never with me again.

   "Hye my handsome Wang Li Chuan. How your day? It's good or bad? Today i'm just want sharing something and i hope you will enjoy my story." With red eyes and tears i saw his grave. I still can't believe he left me and break my heart because he want left me forever and don't back anymore.

   "I bought you a bucket rose as a gift. I hope you will like this Chuan. I know you like this right? It's okey if you don't want to talk with me. But why you left me like this? I can't promise what you tell me before i'm just miss you." Trying to be strong even storm and rain going down too. Just crying even no ones know how much she miss him. She just look at his grave and his name. She talks to much but he never said anything with her.

   "This time is not the right time we can talks and laugh Chuan because today is gonna rainy. I have to go back home and you have to rest well Chuan. Please don't miss me like i miss you okay but what I have to do if i miss you? I can't hug you, i can move on from you and I can't wait how long to be with you." She just wake up from her sit and up straight before left his gravestone. She look again his grave with broken heart. She can't get her strong enough to walk away from his grave. Step by step she left and go home with red nose and dizzy headache.

    She miss Chuan so much but how long she has to waiting. She look so pale and sadness in reality but however she has to be careful about her life in the past.

"Master Gao saya sebagai peminat anda merasakan sangat puas hati dengan lakonan anda lagi-lagi dalam Drama Chinese yang anda lakonkan Remembering Li Chuan. Namun kepergian anda membuat seluruh jiwa dan raga saya kembali hening. Setiap kali saya mengulangi ending drama itu tiap kali itu juga air mata saya menitis menatap wajah anda terasa kerinduan yang saya rasa terhapus walaupun sekejap. Saya sedar anda sudah lama pergi bukan sehari atau sebulan bahkan sudah tiga tahun. Kepergian anda sungguh mengejutkan warga peminat dan keluarga anda. Anda pergi mengejut dan sangat cepat dengan umur anda yang masih lagi muda di ketika itu. Saya tidak boleh berdoa untuk anda malah untuk melawat juga tidak boleh tapi saya mampu mengucapkan semoga anda tenang."

"She is me who dreaming to visit his grave even just a dream. I can't pray and visit him because i really can't. I just can say rest in peace for him even though i never meet him before."

"I just feel but i can't touch. I just cried but i can't pray for him. I just can say he gonna be my restfully too miss him so much."

"He's not my idol but he just my crush who came and goes. Mster Gao history so make me crying and wake up all of us became die soon."

"I can't stop crying even just saw his picture and stalk his old instagram. I just read the comment and feel so sadness cause all of them really really miss him. Just look and he never reply our comment cause he never stay with us anymore."

One day i will go but i don't know i strong or nae.

GAO YI XIANG
(GODFREY GAO)
Li Chuan