this love

the memories of love

The love me and Augustus had is unfortunate. Not just because he passed but also because...he wasn't the only one I loved. I hazel grace cheated on Augustus waters while he was dying. I don't know what I was thinking. Issac was just so amazing and I fell for him right after gus. So when I found out I was pregnant I had no idea whose baby it was. I never thought of myself as this kind of girl. What has happened."hazel I've never been more disappointed in my life." My mom said."help me out here. When did this even happen. We love you and just want to help but this is going a little far. Who dose this baby belong to?" My dad asked. The same question that has run wild in my head for 2 weeks.

I got home at 5 for my ultrasound and was exhausted and cold. That stuff they put on your belly is so cold. But any way I had triplets in there but whose...I have no idea. I first tell Issac. "Omfg. This is my fault isn't it. It's my baby right?" He asked. He so badly deserved to know, but I didn't know so I could I give knowledge to him that even I didn't possess. He was crying hard. So was I. Why? I don't know."I don't know. It could be Augustus's baby to but whose ever it is I don't want to know." And it was true. If it wasn't gus's baby I would be sad. If it was I would be sad. So I'm saving myself the pain. I know Issac dosnt deserve it but I don't know if I could put myself thought it."also, I have 11 months to live."