Okay so this part of the story Skyler (the main character) is narrating but after this is happening in the moment so yeah...enjoy!
Tonight was spend like any other night when I'm with friends, really. I woke up in a bed with drool clinging to my left cheek and rubbed my eyes trying to remember when I fell asleep. I stumbled to the bathroom and smeared the makeup off my eyes leaving dark black circles under my eyes, not able to get much off with toilet paper. I walk to my friends room and look out the window. All the 'cool' kids are outside playing truth or dare, typical, I wasn't really a part of that crowd, I never fit in. Besides I am too chicken to ever play that. I am the only one inside while my 'friends' are outside without me, I mean I guess I'm a buzzkill but whatever. I'm actually terrified of socializing, always have been, I always made a fool of myself, but that's besides the point. I always feel like whenever I try to make friends they always ditch me for someone better or 'less Akward' maybe they can't handle me or...I'm not sure. I feel like I invite myself over or when I don't my friends always pick on me to make people laugh, but being myself i never would speak up. I've trailed way off topic....
Everyone moved inside and continuing playing, laughs and murmurs are heard... But I'm not realLy paying attention. I always wonder what it's like to feel 'friendly' I feel like whatever I say I have to think about really hard, but it always comes out Akward and nobody wants to be around me. I want to leave- be in my room alone. Alone is when I can finally be happy, I am my best friend really... I mean all my "friends" are mean to me and the one who isn't lives 3 hours away.
I roll up my sleeve and look at all the scars and cuts. I've been clean for 3 days but I know that cut again soon. I always put on this fake "smile" and try to think everything is okay but in reality I am broken. I am the type of girl who talks people out of suicide but has a hard time doing the same for herself. The one who tells you "everything is going to be okay" but knows it won't.
Another thing- I always screw up everything. I even screwed up my suicide for fucks sake. Drinking bleach but forgot to lock the bathroom door, so my mom came running in. Figures.
Anyways It's probably time for a name:
Skyler kay Luance is my full name and here's some stuff about myself.
I am suicidal.
I have tried 2 suicide attempts
My parents and brother died in a car accident so I am an only child with my foster parents (they are my mom and dad cause my birth parents died when I was 3)
I have short blonde hair
I have green eyes
I always fake a smile and wear flannels !
Well that's it... Bye :)
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Teen FictionSkyler, a shy introvert is always bullied and is very insecure about herself. She is always has her head in a book or listening to music. She's and adoptive child because her parents died in a sudden car crash when she was 3, but her life totally sw...
