Big Black Dark

BRANDI CH. 02

I left Jawan's, hating myself for uttering words that were unlike me. "I want your baby," echoed in my mind.

His semen was drooling out of my unprotected pussy, soaking the gusset of my panties. This only reminded me of the copious amounts of nigger seed that was still swimming around in my womb.

What was happening to me? Was I starting to suffer from Stockholm syndrome or what? Why had I become so compliant to their sexual deviance? Now I was only meekly protesting the sex before taking their big bare black cocks into my unprotected white body.

I really hated myself. I had been listening to the same lies Xavier was feeding to Mandi. Even taking the same African dick. What pissed me off the most though was that I actually laughed at her fate.

I stopped at the local pharmacy again to buy another early pregnancy test, still kicking myself. I couldn't believe the feelings stirring inside me. Was I prepared for the relationship that was blossoming between my rapists and I?

My boyfriend Chad was the furthest thought from my mind while having sex with Jawan or Xavier. The worst part was when having protected sex with Chad I was dissatisfied. Nothing could get me off then, and I could only think of big black cocks.

The orgasms I had while a large ebony shaft plunged in and out of me were amazing. I faked them with Chad. When he asked, "How was it?" I lied. I always covered my eyes with my arm, fearful he would be able to tell I was lying when I answered, "You're amazing!"

I tried to clear my mind of Chad as I picked out the home pregnancy test. I was shocked back to reality when I noticed the advertisements hung around the pharmacy counter of smiling women saying, "Be safe. Avoid disease. Always use condoms."

I hadn't even thought of the fact I could have caught a sexually transmitted disease until that moment. God knew what Xavier and Jawan might be carrying after fucking so many girls. "Great," I thought, "Now I need to make a doctor's appointment..."

Turning around I had to at least try to get Jawan and Xavier to use condoms. I looked at them for a moment, and picked out the only ones that seemed like they might fit. The box said, "XXXL with extra Sensitivity."

Walking back up to the counter to pay for my items, I noticed another advertisement that knocked the winds from my sails:

"Unplanned sexual encounter? Avoid pregnancy - there's always plan B."

Placing my items on the counter the old pharmacist just smiled down at me, "Will that be all?"

I was biting my lower lip nervously, "Ummm... could you tell me about the plan B?"

He started ringing up my items, raising his eyebrows. Jokingly he mentioned, "Looks like it may be too late for that now, dear."

"It's just, you know..." I nervously shifted from one foot to the other, "Just in case."

I listened to his explanation before making inquiries about cost, prescription and effectiveness. Of course I didn't have enough money with me to just purchase it over the counter.

I left the pharmacy more confused and nervous than anything else. My mind was running a mile a minute. Disease? Pregnancy? The taboo and risks I had taken over the last month had my pussy spasming out of control.

An itch started deep in my nether region that I couldn't ignore. It forced me to undo my shorts and try to scratch it. During the drive home I would occasionally pull my hand out of my shorts to suck my dripping fingers clean. Yet I was left unsatisfied no matter how hard I tried to achieve that sexual high Jawan or Xavier were able to give me.

I got home at about six-thirty just in time for dinner. All I did was pick at my food.

My mother noticed, "Are you okay sweetie?"