Windswept [ SASUSAKU - Modern AU ]

Chapter 14 : Contradiction

It was hot. Like a completely sweltering, blistering, stifling, airless type of hot. I felt like I had been wrapped in hundreds of blankets then shoved into a searing fire. My body just felt so over-heated. I could actually feel myself sweating. Also, my body felt heavy, like every single one of my limbs were weighted down by lead, making it terribly difficult to move. I couldn't even open my eyes. It was like being trapped in your own body.

My blurry, fuzzy mind was trying to play catch up with everything that had happened. The last thing I remembered thinking was how Orochimaru had won.. The ice, the falling to the floor, the difficulty breathing, trying to call Sasuke, my tears turning into ice. Everything at once flashed through my mind causing the same intense panic to once again take over my whole entire being; swallowing me in a fit of nervousness.

What happened after I passed out? Are my parents okay? Oh God! Is Sasuke okay? Where is he now? What happened? Frantic questions that I desperately needed the answers to kept spinning and spinning and spinning, making my head pound even more and become fuzzier.. I felt disoriented and why was it so hot dammit? Why do I feel so heavy and tired? Where am I? What's happening?

Suddenly I felt shifting next to me and if I had any control over my body at the moment I would have stiffened at the movement. What's going on? Strong arms wrapped around my waist and I felt my lifeless body being tugged towards a harder, warmer body which I instantly knew belonged to Sasuke. As strange as it sounds, I know this hug, I know his hug. It was an automatic response my body had even when I wasn't in control of it.

Some of the tension that was causing my headache began to lessen as I was held tightly by Sasuke. If he's here right now holding me, then he must have got my call, which means he's probably the one who found me.. Which means he's okay. He didn't get hurt, he's here holding me, waiting for me to.. to what? Open my eyes?

Even though my whole entire body hurts and even just the idea of trying to open my eyes made me want to give up and fall back asleep, I knew I couldn't. I had to open my eyes, to wake up and see Sasuke and ask what the hell was going on. If I don't wake up now, who's to say I won't ever wake up? I don't want to be trapped in my own mind forever. I don't want Sasuke to wait for me to wake up. I had to at least open my eyes for a moment.

With every last ounce of energy I had, and with more willpower than I ever thought possible, I pull my eyes open. Dim light brushed over my vision at first. It seemed a lot bright than it actually was. My eyes flutter closed once again, but I open them again, blinking rapidly. When my sight clears the first thing I see is the black fabric of Sasuke's tee-shirt, then the smooth creamy texture of his skin and then it took my hazy brain all of two seconds to realize I was in Sasuke's room, laying on his bed.. with him.

I was stiff and hot, trapped in the cage of his arms. I felt safe, like no one could hurt me. Just the feeling of Sasuke holding me made the aches and pains and the fear of being trapped inside myself forever wash away, allowing me to have a moment of peace.

My head spun, causing me to close my eyes once more. I felt sick and dizzy. A rhythmic thud kept pounding against my ear. As I concentrated on the sound more and more, I began to realize it was Sasuke's heartbeat thudding against my ear. The beats were loud in my ears; my whole world, at this moment in time, consisted only of Sasuke and the even beats of his heart. The sound caused my dazed mind to fall back in line, my walled off attention returned and the sick feeling in my gut twisted into a very pleasant warm feeling that began to spread around my body.

He was like my own branded cure.

Before I could even stop myself, or rejoice at having a little control over my body, I try to lean closer into Sasuke's warmth, keeping my ear against his chest so I could hear his heartbeat.. I always want to be able to hear it. His body stiffens slightly and his arms wrap tighter around my waist like the very action was the best thing that's happened to him in years.