Daria's Diary

Dear Diary 5

I will die of boredom today.

I swear to God.

Buong araw kaming naghintay sa mga prof namin. We've prepared our presentations and reports but another campus meeting was suddenly held. It's a bit disappointing. Dapat last week pa 'to pero hindi na naman nagawa dahil sa mga meetings. Can't be helped.

Angel invited me to a bowling game but I refused. Kung meron man akong gustong gawin ay ang matulog.

But when I was about to go home, I caught a glimpse of Allen running around the field.

Ah that's right. He's a soccer player. High school pa lang kami, hobby na n'ya talaga ang maglaro ng soccer. I'm glad that he finally decided to join the team, ngayong college na kami.

He always looked so peaceful whenever he plays. That determined look, that occasional smirk, and that little gesture every time he makes a goal... it's amusing.

I can watch him all day.

Gusto ko nang umuwi pero gusto s'yang panoorin kaya tumambay muna ako sa grandstand. When our eyes met, regardless of the distance, he recognized me and waved his hand. I waved back and he began to continue playing.

Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako sa puwesto ko. The gentle breeze could lull anyone to sleep kaya hindi ko na nalabanan ang antok.

The moment I opened my eyes, I felt my breath leave my lungs.

I wasn't sitting anymore. I was lying down with my head on Allen's lap and I can't help but stare at him.

With his eyes closed, he looked like he was indulging the fresh breeze. His hand caressed my hair. He looked comfortable and the gesture made my heart pound. I feel like I wanted us to stay like that.

Nang dumilat s'ya, nagtama ang paningin namin. He gasped and flushed in red immediately. Para itago ang hiya, tinakpan na naman n'ya ang bibig gamit ang likod ng kamay atsaka umiwas ng tingin.

I tried so hard not to giggle. Bakit... bakit ang cute? Gusto kong pisilin ang pisngi n'ya!

Pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. Pero kung ganito pa rin ang expression n'ya sa susunod, baka hindi na ko makapag pigil.

Malapit nang bumaba ang araw kaya umalis na rin kami. We grabbed a few street food on the way at dumaan sa supermarket para mamili ng necessities ko.

The only thing that bothers me during those times was Allen's anxious state. Paulit-ulit n'yang tinitingnan ang oras sa kanyang phone.

I wondered why. Wala naman s'yang sinasabing pupuntahan n'ya.

Tatanungin ko na sana s'ya, but it was our turn to pay at the counter. Nang makaalis kami sa supermarket, hinatid n'ya ako sa kanto kung saan kami palaging naghihiwalay ng landas.

He was a bit panicking and constantly looking somewhere so I got extremely curious.

Nang maghiwalay ang landas namin, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko na malaman ang dahilan no'n. That was the thing I hate about myself: When my curiosity gets the best of me, I won't be at peace until I knew what's up.

I'm being nosy at this point and I hate it. Nagmumukha na rin akong stalker pero hindi ko talaga mapigilang alamin iyon.

I turned around and proceed to go back. He was still walking but our distance was far enough for him not to notice me. I hid in a parked vehicle near the supermarket.

Maybe this is a part of me that yearns to know more about Allen. I mean, yes, we knew each other since high school but we are not close enough in our likes and dislikes.

Allen is such a mystery to me.

Suddenly, he opened a glass door of some... shop? Slowly, I walked closer to check the store.

Blanc Flower Shop.

Through the glass window, I saw him exit a room, wearing a navy blue apron, and proceed to crouch down in front of a pottery vase.

I immediately put two and two together.