Poly relationship!
Dom woman, male switch, male sub.
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I lay snuggled into Azaleas side.
She and Simon are sound asleep but I can't seem to find an ounce of sleep flowing through my body. I woke up over an hour ago and I haven't been able to calm my racing mind.
About three weeks ago I slipped into sub space during one of our harsher punishments.
Since then I haven't been able to slip back into my dominant headspace and it's really starting to bug me.
I'm sure that Azalea has started to notice that I've been trying to inch my way out of any sexual activities but I don't know how the fuck I'm supposed to fix this, and it's actually starting to annoy me now.
I stare at Simons face who lays across from me, also smooshed into Azalea.
His dark hair that falls in front of his eyes, his crooked glasses that he forgot to take off (even though Azalea always scolds him for it) rest on his face, his pretty button nose flares every few seconds, and his pink parted lips are glazed over causing me to automatically lick my own. He's so fucking mesmerizing.
I move as subtly as I can trying my best to make sure I don't wake either of them up. I slowly slide Simons glasses off of his face before scooting back towards my side of the bed. I unlatch myself from Azalea turning over to place Simons glasses on the side table.
Instead of turning back towards Azalea like I normally would I stay facing the wall. I feel so frustrated and confused. Yes, I've never went into sub space before but I wasn't expecting to not be able to dom again. I feel like I'm incapable of doing it.
Two days ago Azalea decided to have some fun with Simon and I. She decided to allow us to get some touchy time in while she sat back and watched.
While I would normally take control and begin running my hands along his body and teasing him by kissing everywhere but his lips knowing just how hot and bothered it made him. This time i completely froze up.
It was so embarrassing, though I know that neither of them truly minded. Simon simply tilted his head in confusion and Azalea furrowed her eyebrows, her head cocked to the side attempting to figure me out.
They allowed me to take a moment to collect myself. I sat on the kitchen counter watching Azalea continue to toy with Simon while I tried to ignore the ache in my pants.
I wanted to engage again but I was afraid that I would freeze up.
After a few minutes Azalea asked me if I was ready to rejoin and of course I said yes despite my fear. From there Azalea took all control and my previous freeze up was easily forgotten.
Until now. I cant get it out of my head for the life of me and I really just want to go back to normal I feel like I'm broken or something.
I hear shuffling behind me but I make no move to turn around. "Micah?" Simon calls my name. I hum letting him know that I'm awake and listening. I hear more shuffling before I see him appear in front of me. "What's wrong? Why aren't you cuddling with us? Did we do something wrong?" He questions.
"No baby you did nothing wrong. I'm just not sleepy. Lay with Azalea and go back to bed, yeah?" He shakes his head. "You know I can't sleep without the both of you. Lay with us."
With a sigh I motion for him to join me in the bed. He lays between me and azalea still facing me. I stare into his eyes while his eyes trace over my face. Once, twice, then another time. "You're not okay." He says it as a statement. "Talk to me. I'll wake Azalea up if you want. She won't mind, she says if something is bothering us then we tell her. Tell her." He urges me.
