Crushing Heart

Ch-1(Ray POV)

I was running as he was late to school. He was rushing to not get caught by the watchman. The watchman was nearly closing the gate. So i jumped from the wall quickly and entered class fastly. My eyes directly went to the place Anna was sitting. But i quickly controlled it and went to my seat. I sat in front bench while she was in directly in center of class. Then the class teacher came and started to take attendance. Anna was the 3rd one and i tried not to stare her. I mean what if she thinks i am weird. The teacher called my name suddenly while i was lost in thought. I only responded after a few mins. The whole class was watching me dumbstruck. Except her. I guess she isn't even interested in me. My heart ached a little on that thought. 

Anna was like my crush ages ago but i only watch her from afar. It was not love in first sight but i don't know why the hell i love her so much. I just can't even think of something bad happen to her. She is pretty talkative to her friends and we even have each other's number but we never talked. And she is way too cute for me. But I can't talk to her. Normally I am a shy person but after becoming friends with someone I become talkative. I don't really have the courage to confess.

Break started and my friend John came to me. 

He said, "Hey dude, May i know who you were staring at?". 

I suddenly blushed and said, "When the hell you saw me? I thought i was doing it in secret". 

He replied, "I mean dude its pretty obvious to me and its just i was waiting for you to say it but my patience ran out". 

Then i said, " Well its Anna. But dude was it really that obvious?"

He said, "Nope I only found out when you blushed now and you said it yourself. But you hided this pretty well. If you didn't blush i wouldn't have found it".

This guy is too smart. 

I said, "Okay now lets go next period gonna start".

I was thinking about the conversation and suddenly was going to hit a group of girls but stopped in time. They backed off so i can go. I said, "Thank you". And went...but its Anna. I just found out. Her eyes were glowing a little by the sunlight. I suddenly became nervous and ran. It was sudden coincidence. Many times i see her just by sheer coincidence and I think fate plays a part in it. If only fate would make her confess me i will be so much happy than anything in the world. 

John came and asked, "Dude so when you gonna confess. I am curious and how its gonna be?".

I said in a sad tone, "I don't have the courage to confess and if she rejects me I will feel pretty badly".

He replied, "You won't lose anything and what if there is a chance that she accepts? Even if its one in a million you should do it to not regret later because many times 'Love withered before it even bloomed because of silence'. And you cherish her a lot right? Then go for it".

I fell into deep thought after that. I was thinking it plenty of times and i decided to confess.

After a while school finished and i went home. But my mom gave me an errand to get the new massage machine which is in the discount. So I took the bus to go faster. But Anna was there too. She was sleeping. I didn't want to disturb her. I saw her hands which were so delicate that i wanted to hold and protect it. Then her house came(Of course I know it I mean its my crush). So I tried to wake her up. She did wake up and was looking at me absentmindedly. I tried talking to her. She didn't respond. And then i said, "I think your stop came. I saw you here few times". Then she just went. I was disappointed.

After i finished the errand I took my phone. There was a project work we had and wanted her advise because she is good at that subject. I wanted to chat with her too. So i asked her politely. After a while I checked but seems like she read the message but didn't respond. So I politely said that I won't disturb her hereafter. I lost all hope that she will accept my confession so decided to forget about her. In the end she crushed my heart. It was too hard. I literally cried before going to sleep. After I went to bedroom I felt too sad to describe. It took too much to take the decision. But I also have people who rely on me so I don't want them to be sad because of me.

All I wanted was for her to say I am forever yours to me.