Imagine us in heaven

PROLOGUE

Disclaimer Triggered Warning: This is a fictional work. Names, characters, places, events, and incidents are either made up or used in a fictitious manner and by the author's imagination. The story contains strong emotional content and tackle's themes that may evoke disagreement and value judgments based on personal opinion

Please read this story with an open mind, as it contains sensitive themes such as violence, self-harm, death, and suicide. If you are under the age of 20, and you believe this story will have an emotional or mental health impact on you, you should not read it. The story may deal with subject matter that could cause someone who has experienced a similar trauma to be traumatized or re-traumatized, which could decrease or increase the stress you feel, as well as harm your mental health.

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Many people consider suicide as a way to cope with or end mental and emotional suffering. Everyone's experience is unique, it's critical to recognize when passive suicidal thoughts become harmful to someone's safety. Consider the emotions that accompany these thoughts. Understanding the starting point can assist them in better managing thoughts.

It's natural to think about death and dying. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, whereas death is so mysterious and final. Sometimes people feel like they don't belong in this world or they don't deserve to be here living in a miserable life. But not everyone who thinks about to die wishes to end their life. It is critical to distinguish between passive and active suicidal thoughts. Suicidal thoughts that are not actively planned are known as passive suicidal thoughts. Making plans to end your life is an example of active suicidal ideation.

People say I'm hopeless because my mind dominated by thoughts that prevent me from feeling hopeful when I'm at my lowest. People always noticed on how exhausted I looked like, possibly because my life has thrown so much at me that I don't have the energy to keep going. Is it true that I am aimless? Yes, since my life feels like it is at a dead end. It's not okay for me to wake up every day feeling stuck and aimless. It's not easy to set a day's intention or purpose. It's difficult to take things one day, or even an hour, at a time.

I just want to die the way I want to. Not until I met him, the man who strives to live in such a cruel world. Even though his life is worse than mine, he has a full of hopes, happiness, and faith. if I had a chance that I could give the hours and days of my life I would give it to him. He can value the time in every hour, minute, and second, but time cannot value him. If time moves slowly for me, it moves faster for him.

I am Hiraya Saki Hashimoto and I diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Major depressive Disorder. He is Javier Nimuel V. Salazar and diagnosed with Cardiac Sarcoma.

"He wishes to live a long life, but she wanted to die."