A Platonic Relationship

One

I stared down at my paper, gripping the pencil in hand as if i wanted to break it. I glanced at the clock on the wall— it was 2 AM. i couldn't fucking take it anymore.

I whined, throwing down my pencil and slamming my head onto the table, trying to get my stiff neck to
relax.
"Killua! we have to finish this homework or else we'll be punished!", shouted out Gon. Honestly, i didn't care. Shitty lunch detention in a shitty school. i've gone through worse anyway.

  "How the hell am i supposed to do this when i don't understand half the stuff on this paper?" I frantically looked at all the questions trying to find one that made at least a bit of sense. none did. "
C'mon Killua! we're already halfway there." i sputtered and rolled my eyes, "you mean YOU'RE halfway there." He just crossed his arms and sighed. i know what he's doing. he's trying to get me to finish. believe me, i want to.

I sighed too. i aggressively rubbed my eyes, trying to get the sleepiness out of them.
i then slammed my hands on the table and stood up, then turned to look at Gon who was staring at me like a child waiting for their mother to give them a lollipop. I thought for a second. what the hell is there to do at 3 AM? Then it hit me.

I grinned, "you still got that extra money, right?"
"Yeah...what do you need it for?" He looked at me with a raised eyebrow, looking me up and down.
  "well, you know how chocolate makes you super hyper.."
"Don't tell me..."
"Let's buy some chocolate robots to help us study! i'm sure it'll keep us up."

I clasped my hands together and closed my eyes, imagining eating chocolate with Gon while studying..
"Killua!!" He scolded me. "I'm not wasting money on chocolate at 3 am. you must think i'm crazy!"
  i rolled my eyes and sat back down.

"You're so boring Gon! i just wanted to have some fun!" I put my elbow on the table and rested my cheek on my hand, fidgeting with the pencil in ny other.
"Boring?! i'm not boring! I-i watch lots of fun things-!" He yelled out.
i kept the same unamused face as i kept my gaze on the pencil. "Uh-huh, sure. what kind of things?" i glanced over at him before looking back at the pencil.

i noticed he had a red tint on his cheeks before i looked back at the pencil. i didn't think much of it.
"I-I can show you!" He had his chin up, trying to look cool. it was cute.
"Sure, go ahead." I yawned, stretching my arms out. when i opened my eyes to look beside me, he was gone.

I crawled under the table just as he was yawning. it was the perfect opportunity. I kneeled in front of his lap, looking at his pants. The heat in my face and my breathing got worse as i stared. I shut my eyes reaching for the top. i had to. i couldn't back out! i have to prove i'm interesting!

I jumped, feeling somebody's fingers pulling down my shorts. I looked under. it was Gon. a very, very, very red Gon.
"G-gon what the fuck-?" Now MY face was red. When he said he watched interesting stuff, i didn't think it would be fucking porn?!

I grabbed his hands, stopping them from pulling down my shorts any more. He looked up at me. He looked up at me with those cute, brown eyes. fuck. he knew i could never resist when he looked at me like that.
"G-gon- stop.." i whispered. i want him to keep going. i crave him.

Fuck. i let go, my hands trembling. i covered my red face with both my hands and sat back in my chair as i felt him pulling and tugging.
I panted, looking at him through a slit in my fingers.
i couldn't stop him. fuck that. i could stop him.

but i don't want to.