..."Sometimes I want to jump on top of people's cars while they're driving ". ... Unexpected-My overwhelming emotions come over me and force me to break down. The tears slide down my face as I hear again .... "It's not that , i just need some time to myself ". Knowing exactly what you mean , I block and delete you from my life . Once more I do the same , it's getting easier by the day .
"When will this end "! I scream to myself . How could I let myself do this again . Tearing down my walls just to build them higher the next go . I'm tired of crying , I'm tired of giving , I'm tired of not being wanted the way I want to be wanted .
21 and never been in love , I've been in lust and cared very deeply about another but the love thing.... I've never .... I never got it ..
I'm not even saying that I want it right now but Love is ... self explanatory, it's a overwhelming feeling and expression that I've only had once in my 21 years .. plus I was too young .
I don't even think I should count this but it was only time I felt a rush like this . Even at the age of 13 I knewwwww what I wanted and exactly how I wanted it .
Her ... I wanted her body ... Her eyes ... her hips and lips ... inside of me .
