Distance

The Meeting ❤️

I attend school everyday without the hopes of finding love. The boys there are just not very friendly, they are more interested in material things rather than someone they can build a future with. I have dated a couple of people, Bryan Lee, a 5'10 300 pound football player . Seem nice, right? Wrong . He was an self centered , high pitch voice boy who couldn't read a page out of a book without stuttering repeatedly. Honestly , i didn't even really like the kid. I was just doing a favor for a friend who felt bad for him. I also dated a light skinned dread head. He was a basketball star who was more then friendly with every girl in the school and every time I caught him he would tell me something similar to the popular excuse "she's just a friend." We only dated like a month, so I wasn't really heartbroken. I guess the boys are just not relationship ready.
I have came up with an alternate. Best friends are like boyfriends, right? Just maybe not the title. My best friends , Jayden is like my other half. We were just alike. Every day after school we would talk about our problems, our days in joke about things that we notice within the school days. Our relationship was perfect, we never really had any problems with each other. Until. Until he got a real girlfriend. Her name was Katt James. Katt was the type of girl to not care about anyone's feelings, she always had a comment about something that is going on and laughs at people when they are blue or upset. I would know, I was her friend since fourth grade but I stopped interacting with her because she called me a hoe. I know it was or sound silly to let go of a friendship because of a simple name incident, but it was more than that there were way more things she did to upset me and laughed in my face about it. the day they started to date, Jaden's and I relationship change forever. even though I told him that she was not the one for him, he still dating her.
                  At first it was simple things. If it was just taking to reply to my text messages or just ignoring me at school altogether. I know Jaden was hurting on the inside because he felt like I was his. Other half, just as I did. I could see it on his face he wanted to talk to me, but with her hand in his hand as one that was not going to happen.it was like he was her dummy . It was his first relationship, so he wasn't really the dominant partner in the relationship. He was basically......he was.....her little puppy and I know she was cheating on him, but I was scared to tell him because I was afraid that he would accuse me of not wanting to see him happy. I just......slowly...and slowly just stop  with him.
Now, I have nobody. Nobody to turn to. Nobody shoulder to cry on. Nobody to share my success with. Nobody to joke with. I just, have nobody.of course I had a sister her name was Ashley, but Ashley was so cocky I never really shared anything with her because she would just turn my situation into something about her and that's kind of annoying. So I really don't interact with my sister, my own blood sister that much. I have social media but I don't really talk to people off social media because  of safety reasons. Today I decided that I would post  a "to be honest" post. Many people liked it, but they were strangers so I didn't do theirs. But this one boy his name was Preston, I did his. He then direct messaged me and asked for my number, and so I gave it to him.