When I get to school I go to my locker which is a mess. I shove my stuff in then I run which today I couldn't because I got stopped by Reed. My absolute biggest crush! I'm not the smartest when it comes down to talking to him. I get knots in my stomach and then all of a sudden I have to pee! Honestly he's the only person that makes me feel like I belong somewhere! He's my best friend without a doubt and I love that I can depend on him. When I get to my first class which is crew I hate it terribly. I hate the people that are in it. Of course they make fun of me because I have freaking holes in my jeans. Its like seriously have you not noticed that girls by them like this. And it really annoying. Thats what usually makes the rest of the day go bad. I tend to get mad way super easy. The only thing that makes everything hole wrong is when they start saying stuff about the picture that I sent about a month ago. I was alone and afraid and I felt like I had nobody to go to even though Reed always said that I can talk to him about anything. I just hate telling people my feelings because I think they are going to get annoyed with it. Reed is like the only person that understand what I go through. I go to school and always have to deal with "your to skinny" or "your ugly". When I go home I sit in my room and wonder what it would be if I was prettier or if I was a size 2! I am I double 0, or I am a size 12 slim. But when I sot in my room and wonder it gets me worried about what a lot of people think of me. Especially Reed. When I start wondering about that I end up self harming myself I don't mean to but sometimes I feel that pain is the best way to get out of things. Pain. Is the only thing that makes me feel as if I here.
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Everybody has a secret
Randomits about a girl who is dealing with a lot of family trouble. and she gets bullied at school and she's stuck in a point in life that which she doesn't know what to do
