The scent of you

I'm broken the memories fly right around me falling down to my tears being soaked by the big plushy pillow which we used to split between us. I hate my eyes because  they are no longer looking at you,  I hate my arms because they are  no longer hugging you , I hate my ears because  they are  no longer hearing your chirping voice, I hate myself I hate everything, but you. You are the logic, the sense behind everything that I do. Without you nothing has a point. Everything it's hopeless , you give me a reason to  live, your bright as the sun smile, your giggles were echoing in my head every night as we were falling asleep snuggled with the love between us. Now you are gone, disappeared like the smoke of the bbq which we loved to make every Sunday, the only thing left of you are just my thoughts which I'll never let to slip away. I'm laying on the same old pillow and bed smelling every bit of your  perfume  which didn't evaporate yet. Your scent is still lingering the sheet.Trying to fall asleep imagining that the bed linen are your arms and the moonlight rays are your eyes. I'm useless , I'm worthless, worthless without you.

                             -The Looming Shadow-