Yes, that one girl.

Does anyone actually know her?

Does anyone know, that one girl in class? Does anyone notice every little thing about her?

That one girl, that when she goes to "sleep" she says "buenas noches" or "Buenos días" when she's a little carried away.

That same girl that has problems with her mental health, and that her mom doesn't wanna approve that sometimes, she doesn't only feel like a girl, sometimes she feel like a boy, sometimes she feel like nothing, not any gender, just herself.

That same girl that secretly, has a gacha account, but has so much difficulties to focus and have motivation to post anymore.

Does anyone actually know her real personality? Did anyone even try? Or did they just thought that they knew her by the personality she uses arround them.

Did anyone even try to understand what was happening behind all her acting, or did no one notice that acting she uses arround everyone.

Cause she know, that if she even tries to put her own personality, people will call her dramatic, will call her a slut, will call her anything but good, tell her do kill herself. That's the result that happens everytime she tries to. Maybe she is dramatic? But she doesn't know how.

That one girl that hopes everyday that someone notice all that pain and that sadness behind all that fake ass personality, all that "confidence" and how she "doesn't care when someone call her name, and take it sarcastically". Yes. She sure do, but when it's too much, she can't take it and break down. That happened last night, she almost decided to kill herself by overdose of somnifères, cause they told her to go sleep and never wake up.

That one girl, that knows exactly how everyone feels, just by entering a room. Exactly that type of girl that listen to music everytime, everyday, at any hour. It's like she can't live without it.

She acts alot her expression and write them down. It helps her to express herself better, she writes until the story gets happier.. Wich most likely never happens, so she gives up in finishing her story. Tho it's the same girl that tells everyone to never end it, to never end THEIR OWN STORY, she cares alot about others.

It's funny cause, she doesn't realise that she's an empath, well she does. But doesn't wanna admit it, she doesn't wanna admit that all she does for everyone else is just because of that.

Maybe it'll be better if she ends everything? No. It'll get worse, she imagines all the people that would feel bad for telling her to kill herself. All the people that would feel bad for not being here in time, her parents knowing that she told them she had dark thoughts, yet they didn't understand why. They thought they did, tho they only got a little part, they're far away from the real reasons.

Cause she doesn't know herself. She just dont like herself and doesn't wanna admit that, maybe she's just dramatic? Maybe she IS Infact, an attention seeker. All these bad thoughts she has about everybody, even racist thoughts, even tho she hates racist people, she has thoughts like that but.. it's like someone is controling her mind.

Yes, that one girl that probably no one knows who I'm talking about. That one, happy, sad, "dEpReSsEd" girl. She isn't actually depressed, tho she got accused of faking it when she didn't even say she was depressed. Tho that one girl has both her parents in depression, wich her father is in a burn out, but he's trying his best. Well.. that's what she hopes.

All these questions remains in her head, but will they ever be answered by a yes? Or will they stay at their state, "no" would be the perfect answer for these, yet.

That one girl has nothing else on her mind for now.. she's listening to these gacha tiktoks, the sounds are cool. And some of the songs are great, especially sad songs ! I guess now you know who I'm talking about... But if you don't it's okay, that one girl is used to be completely transparent, even though most of the time she always tries to fit in, that's why she changes personality depending on who she's with :)