He left me broken and alone.... (Twilight fanfic)

Chapter 1

I let the emptiness take over as I fell to the moist earth of the forest. My heart and part of my soul were gone. How does someone go through life after that? Still surrounded in darkness I faintly hear people calling my name. Part of me wants them to forget me here. Just like HE did and the other part of me yearned to be home. All of a sudden I heard Charlie..

"Oh thank God you found her!" What did he mean they found me? I'm still in the forest right?

"Yeah of course Charlie, I told you Sam knew his way around these woods better than the bears did." Was that Billy? That's when I realized I was being carried. They weren't the arms I longed for but at least they were warm. I hadn't realized I was freezing until I realized that my whole body was shivering.

"Here give her to me. I'll take her inside."

"All she keeps saying is, he left me... What is she talking about Charlie?" Was I saying that out loud? Wow I've lost it.

"Well apparently Dr. Cullen got a job offer in California, so they all packed up and left. Bella was dating their son." Sounds like Billy again.

"Let me just get her inside and call off the search. This has been the longest 3 days of my life." Three fucking days??? So I was wandering around for days. Poor Charlie, I'll have to make it up to him when I come back to my senses.

I realized I was in my bed by then. I felt the warmth return to my toes. What was I going to do? The love of my life... No existence has left me. My heart is officially gone and Ed-he took it with him. Why wasn't I good enough for him? How could you tell someone you love them over and over and never mean it? That's just fucked up. I guess the only thing I can do is try and live without him. There's no way I'd ever kill myself. I'm too scared for that, and I couldn't do that to Charlie. No I'm just going to move on... Who am I kidding? There will never be anyone else but I won't let him hold be back. There's always more fish in the sea right? They just won't be beautiful, sparkly or immortal.

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3 months later...

I woke up in the morning realizing I'll never see his face or hear his velvety voice ever again. I decided that today will be the last day I cry for Edw-him, I still can't say his name. How pathetic. Well today will be the last time. He said vampires have distractions, humans do too. I'm going to try and live my life to the fullest. No more meek, shy Bella. The last 3 months have been hell... I went to school got my grades up with all the extra time to study and have been trying to talk to Charlie about how I feel. He just changes the subject and turns the tv up. Men. Your all the same aren't you? Today is Saturday and I think it's time to update the wardrobe!!! I ran downstairs to catch Charlie before he left.

"Dad!"

"Yeah Bells?"

"You think I can go to the mall in Seattle today? I really need to get out of the house and my closet needs a face lift."

"Sure Bella! I've got some cash for you if you want."

"That's ok mom sent me some, I'll just use that."

"Ok well I gotta go have fun and be safe. Don't forget your mace!"

"Of course dad, I love you."

"I love me too! Just kidding love you Bells."

With that he drove off in his cruiser. What Charlie didn't know is Phil, my stepdad, auditioned for a Major League Baseball team. He had sent me a black Amex card with unlimited credit! Must be pretty promising. They already bought me a new car so this was an added bonus. Dad just thought it was to get me out of my depression. It was a fully restored Shelby GT 500, it was cherry red with black leather seats. It was amazing. It was perfect timing. My big, rusty, red truck died a couple of weeks after he left me. It seemed like everything was leaving me. I decided it was time to go get ready for my trip to the mall. I decided on an off the shoulder grey shirt and black skinny jeans and my scrunchy black boots. Alice would be so proud. Aww, Alice, I'll always think of her as a sister. It's not her fault they had to leave. At least i hope not, maybe they were all got tired of me. Well anyways, off to the mall!

4 hrs later...........

I'm so exhausted. Even though the mall was surprisingly fun my hands hurt from all of the bags. I know what you're thinking. When in the world did Isabella Swan learn to love shopping? I honestly don't know, I really wanted to start fresh and if I was going to do that I'd need to leave all of my old habits and clothes behind. I was sifting through my closet, I needed to make room. That's when I came across His favorite sweater... My clingy deep blue sweater. I don't think I could part with this particular one. It even had a hint of his scent left behind. Ugh... There has been this invisible hole in my chest ever since he left me. It's as if he literally ripped my heart out and left an open wound. I wish there was a way to bring him back to me but I knew that there was no reason for him to return. I just still can't believe he's really gone. Well I guess it's time to at least pretend to move on from him. I won't let him take away my future if he's going to be out getting "distracted". Then I will too!! God, it makes me sick to my stomach to imagine his velvety smooth marble lips on another. Or that he would caress her cheek with his slim finger and dazzle her with his crooked smile. Lucky bitch!!! Fuck. My. Life.

Well I need to get to cleaning. I'm going to be bringing most of this old stuff to goodwill or the Salvation Army.

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