Bread and Joy

Opti Mundi

I am a very ideological man, although I do my best to use reason and logic, I cannot deny that I am ideological.

Having said that, there are unorthodox views that I have that would confound others which creates misunderstandings, I cannot deny that I am often misunderstood, most of the times unintentionally.

I do not wish to seek empathy or pity from others, I do wish for companionship. I often feel like a caretaker of sorts, I pity others and give them a shoulder to cry on or an ear to talk to. Yet, I long for another to do the same for me.

I will not deny that I have had romantic relations in the past, although I hold some regrets, there is not much I can do.

As a being, I understand pain in every level, I have suffered many things, yet I bear these scars of mine as trophies.

I have no wish to rule the world or to command, I only wish to live a quiet life. However, my dream of having a quiet life is not as easy as I thought.

Although, as perhaps a vain attempt, I would like to share my lens to those who are willing to try them on.

Titles and labels, for which purpose do we assign ourselves such things? I see them as meaningless, after all if you define a person for whom they truly are, you might find some inconsistencies or odd relationship between their interests.

We need to see the person for whom they are, not through labels and titled but through interaction. After all, interaction is the most human of all things we do.

Despite the fact that our technology have advanced so far, why do we still possess the means to interact? In fact, by  reading this, you have interacted with the part of myself who has written this.

I do however think that the way we interact sometimes is meaningless, while some would share jokes to be considered funny. There are those who would spoil the spirit of humor through inane words or humor, different from dry humor.

As of the moment of writing this, I do not know whether this kind of humor has a name, although if I was granted the honor, I'd called them "Troll Humor" as this kind of humor is usually used to "Troll" someone.

Now, some of you might think that being a Troll and a prankster are two similar things, yet this is not the case.

A proper prank is a harmless joke that would illicit a humorous response, yet to Troll is to joke around a person to the point of irritation and frustration.

An acquaintance once told me "It's not funny if you're the only one laughing." And I have yet to prove that statement to be false.

In any case, this is as much as I can write for now, there is not set schedule for the following chapters as this is more of a passion project than anything else.