New View

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The morning was one of those very bright and lively mornings. At least for the rest of my family. But for me the morning was different, there wasn't a ray of light shining down on me. Instead I got this headache stinging me over and over as I listened to my mom telling me how my brother was a lot better than me. Listening to her tell me that I'm worth nothing because my grades aren't as good as his, or I'm not as good looking. All the way down to the smallest detail and even including the fact that he has a girlfriend and I don't.
I heard that parents aren't supposed to say things like this. I always thought that a mother was supposed to support your ideals and thoughts, and when your ideals are messed up she would be there to help guide them back to the right path. My mother was the opposite of your idealistic mother. But she was only like this towards me. I am the screw up of the family, that has no where to go but down. This is what everyone told me, it has got to the point where I have began to believe all of the words. But I finished my cereal and left. Letting the heavy wooden door slam behind me.
I looked up searching again and found nothing and then I decided it would be best to look forward again. As I looked forward I saw Megan, my only friend in this world. She is slightly shorter than me and despite the fact that she hangs around me, she is very pretty and even smart. I've tried telling her multiple times that I'm only holding her back. She has never budged though, she continues to be very close to me and I've recently decided it isn't too bad. "Good morning!" Megan greets me with a smile every time I see her and it truly makes me happy. "Hey, you ready for school?" I follow her good morning with an empty question in attempt to start some meaningful conversation. "Well... To be honest, the only reason I like going to school is because your there!" I can't help but blush a little. No one has ever wanted to see me. I always thought that I was hated by every last soul on this planet. I think for a bit wondering what I should tell her when I finally come to a conclusion "Wow, no one says things like that to me". Megan looks up at the sky and then quickly looks back to me giving me a bright smile. Her smile makes me think that I might have a chance in this world. The rest of the walk to school was rather anti climatic and bland. We arrived in front of the schools massive front gates.
The gates seemed to stare down on us as if once you entered they wouldn't let you exit. This is when my stomach began to turn with the thought of stepping through the gates. Without realizing it Megan had already walked through the gates and she called for me "Hurry! We're going to miss class if you don't learn how to stop dazing off!". Even if she was only merely a few feet away, my previous feeling of being close to her had already left my body. I now felt as if she had drifted off to a far off land in which I couldn't be apart of. Here at school she was what your everyday teenager would call "Popular". I always saw the other students looking at her and I can almost hear what there thinking. It's probably something like "Why won't Megan just leave that kid alone" or "Really? Megan why do you continue to hang around him! He is trash". Megan begins to wave at me and I realize I'm still in front of the gates. Walking at a slow speed I go towards Megan and whisper into her ear "Are you sure about this? People will spread all kinds of rumors again if they see you with me" I didn't expect her to get angry at me for that. "Rem! Why do you always say things like that? Have you ever considered the fact that I actually like being with you!" I could feel the color of my face change as I realized something. Megan actually likes being with me! This is the first time anyone has ever told me anything like this.
"Megan, your the only person that makes me happy. I'm glad that I finally found that person" These words slipped out of my mouth without any form of hesitation. But when I took the time to think them over I realized I said something super embarrassing. Megan's reaction was different and almost immediate. Suddenly I felt the warmth of another person pressing against me, I couldn't put all of the pieces together with my mind swirling around. Finally I realized that warmth was Megan pressing against me, hugging me. I put my arms around her instinctively. Her teary eyes looked up to me and I could see the gleam in her eyes as she said the words that began to change my view on life. "Thank you for being with me!". I could see all the gazing eyes and whispers that were directed towards me and Megan but I didn't stop holding her because this was the first time anyone has hugged me like this.
After what seemed to be a lifetime me and Megan stopped hugging, I could still feel the faint warmth of her body pressed against mine. We quickly walked to class avoiding the glares and whispers of other students. I walked into class with Megan and that's when everyone in the room started giving me looks. I felt as if I had made an enemy out of the entire school. All of this taking place on the first day of school. I sat down in the back of class in an empty seat next to the window, Megan followed me and took the seat next to me. A few moments ago as I was hugging Megan I felt as if all of the people around me disappeared, now i can visibly see all of my classmates staring me down with this look in there eyes that seems to tell you to back away from Megan. A loud slam and I turn to see what's going on. Someone flung the door open with full force.
That person being a guy named Olson, Olson is a tall upperclassmen with spiked hair. He is one of the many guys currently trying to go after Megan and he just so happens to be my schools number one popular jerk. Before I could even comprehend what was going on, I saw Olson run towards me. He slammed his hands on my desk and then he stared into my eyes and screamed "Don't you ever touch Megan! She is mine, do you understand you pathetic fucking worm". Instantly I felt a surge of terror, the schools most popular jerk is trying to pick a fight with me all because of that hug with Megan. Maybe I could just tell him that it's all a misunderstanding. He will have to understand if I just explain everything right?
Just when I was going to begin explaining the misunderstanding Megan stood up and quickly stepped between me and Olson. She had this look on her face that told everyone in the room to leave me and her the fuck alone. You could visibly feel an aura emitting from her body that was so close to just bitch slapping Olson in the face. Megan finally let out a few words "What did you just say Olson?". Olson looked at her wondering why she was trying to defend me, who would want to defend me right? Defending Rem Waters was probably an immediate shot to the head and yet Megan stood there in front of me defending me with all of her strength. Confused Olson finally answered Megan "I said that this worm has no right to be with you!". Olson's words basically concreted his failure because Megan retaliated with a giant swing at his face. The noise of Megan's hand hitting Olson's face echoed throughout the room and then a scream came out "Rem is mine! You back the fuck away, there is no way in hell I'd ever go out with you Olson" the words echoed through my mind "Rem is mine" has she just said that she wants to be with me? All of this suddenly happening to me. Just this morning I thought that no one in the world would ever have any sort of romantic interest and now Megan has publicly confessed that she likes me. Or am I misunderstanding her words? The entire class was distraught as they heard Megan's words. The same things were probably going through there minds. Did Megan just confess to me?
After being brutally slapped Olson swung at Megan out of nowhere. As he pulled back his arm I jumped out of my seat and pushed Megan out of the way. Olson's fist came crashing down on my face. My face went numb and I could feel blood on my lips. But this isn't the first fight I've been in. In this moment I decided that I would fight. I will no longer let people reign over me as if they were a king. I can be the new king for Megan's sake. Olson jabbed at me with his left and I stepped to my right dodging his hit, immediately I threw a right straight aiming for his face. The punch directly hit Olson in his face, leaving a small cut under his eye. I turned and threw another punch before he could even react. This time my punch connected and damaged the other side of his face. I didn't have time to think or even react to the bloodied face of Olson Jens. Olson stood there staggering left and right and then finally he fell to the floor. Before his body hit the floor he let out a few words "You monster!".
The entire class looked at me with there eyes open wide. They all began to go crazy wild and cheer. No teachers were in site as this was a self study class for first period. I looked at Megan and she jumped at me. Yet again I felt the warmth of her body, hugging me. The entire class clapped in unison. I felt as if they were finally accepting me and Megan being together. Olson's lackeys came to his side and carried him out of the class. Once again as I held Megan in my arms I could feel everyone in the background disappear. All of my hidden feelings for Megan came to light as I hugged Megan. "Are you alright!?" Megan whispered into my ear. Her whisper tickled my ear as I processed the question. Whispering into her ear I said "I'm fine, one hit is nothing, that bastard tried punching you!". I've always thought that I could never feel love. But today that all changed.
All of my years of hearing how bad I was at life. They all seemed to not matter anymore. I feel like I've finally found my reason to live, I no longer care about what my parents think or what the other kids think. I know what this feeling is now, For the first time in my entire life of hearing my parents, teachers, and classmates telling me I'm a horrible person, I finally understand that I'm not a horrible person. This is all because of a new feeling I have.
I looked into Megan's eyes and no longer whispering anymore I told her "I love you so much". After those words Megan started crying again and through her sobs she replied "I've always loved you!" The entire room went silent as I leaned into Megan and kissed her. I felt her soft lips press against mine and her tongue in my mouth as we stood there kissing. This moment seemed to last forever. Everyone else in the room was non existent to me. I just held her in my arms thinking one thing, I finally found someone to love me. That was the moment I stopped looking down. The day the sun finally shined down on me, I could finally feel the warmth of the world around me as I held Megan's hand walking home after school. With her hand in mine I will continue to walk down this path, no longer looking down but looking up.

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