The beauty that lies within.

Preface

I hadn't always known i was great. Actually quite often i had always thought the complete opposite. Fresh out of the womb I had been told i would do great things. Something about me had just always seemed to draw people close. Maybe it was my humor or my long luscious curls. Or maybe my nasty attitude that was covered up with a beautiful face. It was always something setting me apart from everyone else whether it was me being so young and intelligent or the fact my words of wisdom sounding of those with years of life and time. It could have been the fact of me being the only black kid in class and at one point the only black kid in school.

As I got older life got harder and had presented several challenges. I had been alone and alone from the start.I never had a hand nor a handout. I did all this on my own and I didn't have any help. I've been used, abused, misunderstood and overlooked. I have been through hell and back and people need to hear my story. It went from "Everybody hates Anna" and now they all love me. I'm not better than anyone and I honestly don't see myself as an higher power I am just as special as anyone else. But I have been though hell and back my name roughly dragged though the mud because they've always had animosity. I didn't live the normal life or even the sort of normal that is slight from the norms. I didn't have mother nor father and didn't have sleepovers or a phone to rely on. I didn't have a appropriate way to express my feelings and never had someone to lay my head on. No one was there for me and I was taken away from the only person who believed in my self worth and potential. I was hungry for love and hungry for someone to care and until the day I have yet to have those years of pain sufficed. The only place I had to be myself was school and eventually after so much anger I didn't have that either. I've messed up my life and have been so close to death maybe more times that I have ever thought.

Except sometimes the negative is all. I like to open my eyes every once in a while because I have made it far and I promise I'll make it farther. I'm the top of my class. A sophomore with the reading intelligence of a advanced collage student. So young and making my own money and extending my own income. I've made the worst to the best and can provide for myself and have extreme independant skills because if it's one thing I have learned it's to always rely on yourself.