𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄

Before the Fall.

"So, I went on a date the other day." One of the grieving people, Bobby, spoke up. A few years had past and mourning was what the world could only feel right now. It shook everyone, and even some people couldn't shake it. "Good job, Bobby. Back in the game." Someone had spoke back to the response. "Thank you, Jimmy. First in five years. I sat there at dinner thinking, what are we even supposed to talk about?" A more deluded, defeated Steve Rogers popped in, listening to what the ladder had to say. "Well, what did you talk about?" - "Same old crap. How much things have changed. How much we miss the Mets. My job, his job. Then it got kind of quiet. He cried during the salads." - Another person spoke up, "What about you?" -  "I cried... just before dessert. But I'm seeing him again tomorrow. So..." - "That's great. You've already done the hardest part. You took the jump, didn't know where you'd come down. And that's it, those little brave baby steps we've got to take. To try to make us feel whole again, to find a purpose... I went into the ice right after I met the love of my life. Woke up seventy years later and...had to keep going." The group listens and takes it all in as tears poured down a few other's cheeks, others remained quiet in their own heap of blues.

 "I... think about him a lot." Y/N spoke up, cause Steve to chirp up at the sudden voice, knowing you weren't a talker, softly smiling at the sight of you opening up. "He would always be in my dreams. There would be points where I would wake up just to go back to sleep, because I knew he wasn't... there. So whatever I dreamt about, would become that reality, y'know?" He sighed as tears began to build up, stinging the inner corners of your eyes and reddening the tired creases in your eyes.  "When he, when he left, it was like blinking and then sudden he was gone. He left too quick... they all did. At one point, I couldn't even take it anymore. I slept too much that the weight of missing him became too strong... I stopped eating, I stopped using my powers, everyday I grew weak... So I..." Y/N began to choke up as he held his breath, the memories of that night replaying in his head. He blank away his tears as he looked up at Steve.  - "But you're awake now, you're here with us now, you held on, and you're getting through it. That's one thing we all just gotta grapple onto. Holding our heads up and working with what we got, no matter how much we've lost, we have to learn to work with what he have now. The world's been left in our hands. If we don't do something with it...then Thanos might as well have killed all of us."

Just as everyone began to disperse, Steve grabbed Y/n to the side and inhaled deeply. "Steve, I miss him... I-I don't know what to even do. I'm so... so lost and gone." - "Y/n, you can't just give in, okay? We're gonna get him back, we're gonna get them all back, . I promise."

Ever since the encounter with Thanos, "I used the stones to destroy the stones." Y/n remained compact in his apartment. The ringing of silence as the clock ticked as every second went by, but each tick, the more the ringing got louder. He considered ripping the thing off the wall and slamming it on his porch, but there was some sort of comfort in the clock. Despite half the population missing, the ticking set his mind at ease. Voices filled Y/n's head as he imagined a busy street, to imagine him going on about how cars advanced, or even just him finding comfort in Y/n enough to recite his past and find that closure... Bucky... Was all in Y/n's mind, nothing but the man and his metal arm. He would remember, when the man went away to Wakanda, he would stare at the stars- even though that star on his old arm meant nothing but good, Y/n and Bucky always knew how to change its views and cover it up for something better. So whenever Y/n laid comfortable on the apartments roof, he would always draw out the stars into shape, knowing that that one star that was missing, would eventually be connected...

------ 03/30/2022 - Authors note:
Very sorry for not uploading for a while. ToT I have been very busy with other things that I forgot to write. And even when I do end up writing something, I can never finish it cause brain go blank. I hope you enjoyed this lil angsty one shot. If you ever have any requests, please do let me know because I am dying out here.

▶ I also just realized we hit 2.5k reads???????????? Holy shit- thank you guys so much! TuT <333