Love Me Harder (18+ Only)

Part 5

By lunchtime I was still ecstatic that I actually volunteered to get lunch from the cafeteria in the lobby. Lara usually does it but I was feeling generous and didn’t mind standing in line for twenty or so minutes as the handcrafted artisan sandwiches were prepared. The assignment definitely distracted me from my phone. For a few minutes. Because now I’m fighting the urge to check it again.

What is it with Adam? He’s gorgeous and sexy, that’s for sure. I feel like a walking quivering pussy where he’s involved. It’s kind of disgusting. Especially since I am in a relationship. It’s not the healthiest and definitely more complicated than most but it’s still a relationship. I’m happy I’m in a relationship at least.

But Adam… damn.

When his lips brushed mine a kindling was lit inside me. It was a just ghost of a kiss, a mere tease. So why do my lips still burn? Why do I want more? What's going on?

The Ariana Grande song I used for Kevin's ring tone broke the atmosphere. My heart stopped. Here I am thinking of a guy I met not even 24 hours ago and my actual, real boyfriend is calling me probably to tell me how much he misses me and how he can’t stop thinking about me. I am truly sick in the head.

"Lover! How are you?" Was that too much? Too fake?

"Baby, I miss you. I wish I could see you right now. "

His voice sounded thin and far away. "I miss you too. I'm just about to go to lunch. What are you up to?"

The silence on the other end of the line was thick with hesitation. Oh, don't tell me. Please.  He can’t possibly do this. Again.

“Gwen bear-"

"No, Kevin. NO. I have not seen you in three weeks! I need you, baby.” The crack in my voice echoed.  

"I am so sorry. Something came up. You have no idea how much this hurts me. I need to be inside you." My heart fell into a bottomless pit in my stomach. There was so much hurt in this voice, so much pain and I felt the urge to make him feel better almost instantly. I swallowed the feeling down.

"No, you don't. Because if you did you wouldn't cancel on me. Again. I made plans.” I know I sound like a whiny, clingy woman and trust me I hate it. But if I don’t see him soon enough I wonder what’s going to happen to us. Temptation has moved in next door and it’s driving me insane. I need stability, more than anything.

He cleared his throat, a telltale sign he’s about to tell me something I didn’t want to hear. “Julia has a talent show on Friday and Clara decided to make a weekend of it. We’re going to Napa.”

This is what happens when your boyfriend is married and has kids. I have to share. “That’s not fair.” Whatever claim I think I have on him, Kevin knows that once he brings up his daughter’s name I give in. I can’t be selfish. Especially since I’m only the mistress.

“I am so sorry, my darling. How can I make it up to you?”

By teleporting into my apartment right now and making mad passionate love to me on the kitchen floor? “I don’t know.”

“How about you take your girlfriends to Snoqualmie for the weekend on me?”

“Are you sure?” I guess being a mistress has its perks. A weekend by the falls, above it all, gambling and having fun with my friends has a nice ring to it. My spirit’s lifted up already.

His chuckle was guilt-laden and gratifying to me. “I’m not but I want to make you happy. I’m really sorry.”

“Okay. You really messed up. But since you’re accepting that, I’ll make sure you learn your lesson.”

“Ouch! I can already feel my bank account shrinking.”

“You know I’m worth it.”

“I do.” That’s for damn sure.