All Alone in the Abyss

Chapter 1: Introducing Myself

Alone. That’s what I am in this very moment. I’m all alone in this abyss. No one to talk to, no one to hear my plea, no one to accompany me. I wish someone was here with me, saying that I have to continue on, yet fate has been ever so cruel, for that wish have never fulfilled. Why does it come to this?! What did I ever do to deserve this treachery?! I’m only a 12 year old girl, an orphan. The past is haunting me since that day of my lost. Those events in my past cause me to become blind and voiceless. Now I am living with someone I never knew. He took care of me for years. What he will never learn from me is the truth I’ve been hiding for decades. 

My name is Averia Havelin. I’m one of the children who suffered greatly and now drowning in the seas of sorrows. 

Beep

Beep

Beep

The alarm woke me up from my light slumber. I shut off the alarm with my heavy hand and sat up on my bed. I stretched my arms and yawned. I move my feet to the ground and felt my fluffy slippers under my feet.  

Just at the right moment, I heard several soft knocks on the door, followed by a creaking noise. Footsteps are getting closer to me in mere seconds. 

“Good morning, Averia!” Javyr, my new father, greeted to me with kindness in his voice. I couldn’t see him due to blindness. Yet somewhere in my mind, I can imagine him smiling. I heard an all too familiar bark. It was a bark from my guide dog, Callier. 

Callier was given to me as a gift. Javyr told me he’s a german shepherd. Callier is energetic yet protective at the same time. Just like my younger brother.

I didn’t realize I was dazing off. I stood up from my bed and held Javyr’s arm for support. Callier simply bark and followed us outside my room. The wooden floor would sound at every step we took. I can sharply smell the aroma of the breakfast from up here in the second floor. 

I guess it was all true. Even though when you lose a sense, the others senses will sharpen. Back then, I thought it was just a trick.

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“Breakfast is ready!” Kia announced cheerfully. Kia is the house maid. She’s always cheerful. Like Javyr, she’s kind like my mother. 

I sat down on the wooden chair and ate the meal prepared by our housemaid. It was a comfortable silence. Usually Javyr will tell me what will I do today, about school, or his work. But what I want to know if the world is still like it used to be 5 years ago. Are the people becoming worse each and every day? Or has the green nature vanished, replaced by buildings made by man?

~Greenfield Northway High School~

As I followed my guide dog, the people around me will eventually avoid me as always, but they will talk behind my back. It’s what I have grown used to. I was glad for being left alone yet disappointed for being insulted. Most of the people would leave me with wounds or vulgar words. I remembered the first time I went here being eyeless. I was hurt by them. The people who I thought were friends left me and joined with the others. 

Javyr told me if my school went fine, I simply nodded, hiding the despair behind my own answer. Days went by after that time; I lost everything except the love from my family. I thought of every single insult as daily words. I have accepted that this is my reward for being foolish. I never knew this would happen through my life. Now here I am, trapped in this land with this cursed gift. 

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I am certain that Callier is guiding me to my first subject of the day. Homeroom. Our teacher would always share devotion in that class. I would ignore those words from a verse, they have no meaning in my life. If there’s truly someone that would watch over me and guide me to safety, I wouldn’t be stuck in this prison. I would experience a normal life just like the rest. 

“Oh my god, I wish she’ll just transfer from another trash.” I knew that high pitched voice. It was the infamous Sylyph Hermin. The leader of a club filled with socialites, Greenfield Glamstars. The club I wanted to hinder away from. From what I can hear, she was accompanied with the other members.

“I can’t believe a gorgeous name was used by some filthy rat!” A girl spat with hatred. “It’ll be better if it was my name!” Laughter echoed through the hall. 

“She’s such a freak. Why is she even here anyway? Because of her grades? Wow, what a nerd, a loser, and a freak! What a failed combination!” The laughter increased. 

I find it funny on how their bickering about my intellect. Surely, I have heard of the stories that most of the students have low I.Q. So why even bother insulting the one who’s better and know more than they do? That is the question I never understood. 

“God must have accidentally created her. Look at her, man, a lot of mistakes!” A jock joked. “But the being eyeless went too far!” 

I feel like I’m really an accident. Maybe His didn’t plan a purpose for me yet. Am I a mistake? Or is this really His way to go towards a better future?

 I wasn’t pained by being called eyeless. After all, I am indeed eyeless. My eye socket was plain empty. It was just black, black as my soul. But they would always miss something that they never knew. Heartless. The heart inside me was replaced into a robotic heart. This would make me feel like a machine, not an ordinary human.  

Out of nowhere, a student decided to make a rumor on how if they stared in my sockets, they’ll have seizure and a curse will be laid on them. He said something about a friend of his disappeared mysteriously after staring at my holes.

 I was amused that this rumor was spread all throughout the campus. That rumor made everyone fear me but didn’t stop their insults. I was grateful for that rumor. Only then, I figured out that the spreader was my first friend who never left my side. Even if I looked different from what I was when I was younger. Lynall Nether. 

Callier let out a low growl at everyone who dared to threaten me. I can hear some of the students cowered away. I tightened my grip on the leash. Now is not the time to pick out a fight. We didn’t stop walking. Sylyph and her “friends” decided throw some papers at me and started their name calling. 

I wish they’ll leave me alone. I can’t handle too much despair in me. This school is just an additional problem for its pupils. These students will just continue their madness and not thinking about the feeling for those who was hurt by them. Yet they weren’t satisfied with their rampage on me, I kept my head high. In other’s eyes, I’m confident of who I am, yet in my own eyes, I’m putting on an act. 

I continued to walk. Everyone was throwing their curses at me. It was the moment where the school bell rang. It hurts my ears to hear such high pitched sound. It was also my savior to stop this craziness.