Ordinary

I'm bored with life. Everyday it's the same thing. Nothing interesting happens. Even if something out of the ordinary happens, it's never REALLY out of the ordinary. Such an odd statement; "out of the ordinary". It means exactly what it says; something that is not in the category of ordinary. Yet it never really gets to be used properly. Ordinary is a very conditional word. It depends on the person using it to describe what it means. For some, ordinary can be two very different things. So something out of the ordinary for one person could be completely ordinary for another. What I want is something entirely different. Something no one can truthfully say, " I did that too." I want something spectacular, magical and special. Something out of the ordinary. And I don't want to spend the rest of my, so far, ordinary life waiting for it! I want to go out and find my out i

of the ordinary experience. I want to leave everything behind and lead a different life. I want MY life, as it should be. Not how it is being wasted right now. But how does someone go about finding an out of the oridnary life? That is a question no one can answer. How can you know where to start when there is no path ahead? Exactly, you can't. So for now I must wait. No matter how painfully it wounds me on the inside I have no other choice. I'll wait for my path to show. If I think I see it, I will guess and take a chance. But until I can take my first step on the out of the ordinary road, I will have to wait and live like everyone else.