Prologue
"It was always impossible. Still is, always will be. I will never have a boyfriend that will care about me. I will be alone forever."
I stare at myself in the mirror, only saying the impossible truth. While it stings, I know that it is true. The past boyfriends I have had ruined me, hurt me in more ways than I thought possible. One cheated on me, one beat me and one did both and more. I let the tears run down my face as the memory floods my mind.
It was a Saturday afternoon. I was over at Brandon's house (my boyfriend at the time) . We had spent the day together and I remember thinking "Wow, I really love this guy."
I stop the memory knowing I would never live to see another day if I let it play much longer. Being raped changes you, even drives you to the point where you don't want to even live anymore. Its bad enough to have your innocence ripped from you, but to have it be taken from you by the one you loved most in the world, its like setting yourself on fire and never completely dying from the burns.
I thought about this on the hour bus ride to school that morning. It burned my brain from the inside out, tears threatening to fall down my already flushed face. I felt a little more of my heart break as I looked out the window to find that we had finally arrived to Frederick High School. Little did I know, my life would change forever.
