Vent book

Mom

    Hello mom I know you will never read this because you are too busy reading those omegaverse fanfics but I just wanted to tell you I love you.
       I have wanted to tell you that I have only wanted you to love me back like you used to before. I wish I could say before like there was a time where you did which I truly want to believe but realistically you probably haven't. Maybe I don't want you to love me maybe I just want you to stop looking at me with disgust and rejection.
       I know even if you saw this you still wouldn't care you would just yell and tell me how to feel. Then you probably wonder why I don't talk to you. You act like you know every single thing about me but you don't even know what my middle name is or whens my birthday  is.
     I'm sorry mom I'm really sorry I only wanted to make you proud. I know that when I was younger you wanted a lil girl you wanted to dress her up and do her make up and do their hair. But Instead you got me you wanted a lil girl and you got a trans son who hates long hair who cut off my beautiful long blonde hair and I hate makeup and I can barely keep my eyes open long enough to put the dang eyeshadow on 🤣 and I don't like dresses because they make me uncomfortable.
     I'm the complete opposite of everything you want and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you don't accept me for being transgender. IM SO SORRY that being myself hurts you. I'm sorry that while being myself I have felt happier I can finally look in the mirror I can take pictures of myself.
    I finally love myself so I'm not going to say I'm sorry anymore because I'm truly not if you can't accept me don't expect to have any contact with me after I graduate in two months and join the army. I better not hear a god damn thing about "why don't you hangout anymore" or "why did you quit talking to me" because you should use that brain.