THE UNKNOWN EPILOUGE.

#mystory

The memories of that day are dew fresh.

We were finally meeting, just two of us, as it is projected.

Knew we had very little time with each other coz the vibrations were so high, holding on to selves would freeze after a certain period. Whatever doubts we had, had to be cleared within this span of time.

Every passing minute sounded like an hour... waiting is such emotionally taxing. Negative thoughts never leave your side. The time is spent pendulously b/w if and buts.

The sound of your car broke the chain of my unwanted thoughts. I waited for you to appear at the door step. How would I greet you? Its better I leave this job to you.

You greeted me with a broad smile on your face. and it disappeared within seconds I knew you mask up your true self within seconds. and converse with me half-heartedly.

I have to leave a little earlier than early , got some urgent work. Just came to give you, your gift. You said it in a single breath.

Sure, as you prefer..mind having a cup of coffee with me. I have already prepared it. I looked into your eyes.

Ya! a bit of it. You made yourself comfortable on sofa.

I extended my hand with a cup of coffee for you n sat next to you.

Hey! The coffee tastes good. I m not praising you but its really amazing. I needed this cup after my hectic schedule. You were smiling.

I smiled n looked at you. Sipping my coffee.

Why did you utter those words? why you wanted to call someone, when I m here with you ? Are you scared of me?   Do you know how insulting i felt?  He raised his eyebrow.

No! I thought you don't want to meet me all alone (akele-akele). So offered this suggestion. I innocently put it forward.

Do you want to say something. You have all my ears. Your soft voice took away a heart beat of mine.

I looked at you surprised. I wasn't expecting any of this heart to heart conversation. I had made up my mind for a formal conversation. I looked straight in your eyes.

The language of eyes is always out of this world. Decrypting and interpreting it, you need to be a  great scholar.

The look in your eyes zapped my mind. I was left speechless. Kept on finding meaning to eye to eye communication. It took me sometime to overcome the strong emotions.

I 'm seriously here to hear your heart out. Whatever you hold close to your heart..every word you want me to know about you. You tried to hide your faded smile.

Its ok.may be some other day. You are running out of time. I put my eyes to the floor.

I insist. You touched my hand and looked straight towards me.

I try hard but the tears had their own plan. They just started pouring down.  i sat there quietly, letting silent tears droll down.Without lifting my head up. 

He was cushioning the tears that touched my cheeks n fell down. take your time. I 'm in no hurry. Just try and stop crying. I can't see you crying. Don't drive me to guilt trip, Every time I meet you.  I could see his face fall down in grief, even through my teary eyes.

We talked our heart and mind aloud. Why does heart and mind always have an conflict when the feeling is of love.

We were deeply in love.  It was the biggest fear we faced. Acknowledging and admitting it would ruin our lifes . We kept on repeating in our minds, this can't be love....it's just an attraction...it's just an connection of pain, we share and understand.  where as Every inch of our body and soul was shouting to us to admit the connection...the deep love we have for each other.